The Life Of Mine [JiinJiin]

End of 2011 Start of 2012

2012-02-01T18:41:00.001+08:00

It's been really long since the last time I post an entry to my lousy blog.

Let's start from Christmas. Christmas 2011 is not that interesting as we didn't do anything special or so. We did go out to 112 Katong Mall for dinner on the eve and had sukiyaki. Later, we then go to Marina Bay Sands to shop for my Christmas present and my dear's Christmas present at Louis Vuitton. I got a multi-color monogram zippy coin wallet and dear got a belt. We walked around snap some pictures and then went home. On the 25th we did nothing much. We went back to Marina Bay Sands to exchange my wallet as the zip handle came off. Later, went for expensive lunch and went home. Hmmm... Later, we had dinner at friend's house cooked by a future chef who is the host of the dinner. Dinner was good.

As for New Year's eve, I got dressed up and went to 112 Katong Mall to wait my dear end work and later go Ding Tai Fung to eat. He bought a Mont Blanc pen as it was his last day doing temp job for Cortina. one of the side dish from the restaurant was awesome! The beef slice!! So tender and juicy! Xiao long Bao is okok la. Coz KL got 1 dimsum restaurant's Xiao long Bao taste better and it's a lot cheaper. We also had a dish something like wanton with vinegar. That was nice too! Went home after that.

On New Year day, we went to Suntec City. I forgotten why we went there. To do what? Seriously can't remember. Brain damaged after trying to memorize what I studied in class. I only remembered that we had a great brunch at Seoul Yummy! Their Ginseng chicken soup is awesome! Dear had spicy seafood soup. Their kimchi is refillable. The side dish cold beancurd was nice too but the portion a bit too small. The restaurant is very cozy and has got the theme of autumn. Can see a huge maple tree in the middle of the restaurant. I definitely will go there again. Their set lunch considered affordable. Then we went to Vivo city. I cannot remember why we went there. I only know we had ice-cream at Häägen Daz. Memory getting bad. Seriously bad!!!! Oh yea, I bought a BEBE T-shirt.

Here's some awesome photos.

2 December 2011

2011-12-02T17:40:00.001+08:00

It's been so long after my last post!

Been really busy with my studies and work. Plus outing with my dear.

Had received our photos frm Lafatte Wedding. Dear uploaded all the photos in his Facebook page. Should I upload in my own Facebook page too? I love all the pictures taken. Will upload some that I especially like here at the end of the post.

Studying and working at the same time really give me some headaches. I can say that I cannot remember the terms and cases properly. That is a taboo to study law. I need to make space in my brain so that I can fit in more studies information. Should have started my assignments before too late! I have about 1 month to finish them up! At least I started to collect newspaper cutting. But it seems that I have totally no idea how to start off. That's very bad you know?

My birthday!! Yea, already passed. Not fun seriously. Passed my birthday in class. Dear prepared a birthday cake for me with 2 big 1 small candle and say I will be forever 21 although it was my 22 birthday. So sweet of him. Another thing is birthday wishes. Thanks to Facebook so that most of the people remember my birthday and sent me regards. Other than that totally moody! Had more disappointment when it comes to food part. How much I love good and nice food and end up not enjoying at all when we went to eat buffet at a restaurant at The Central. Everything need to queue long long. The food is average but expensive for why they had. Oyster, crab and drinks need to wait and queue. Not up to the standard of what we paying for. Definitely won't go there any more. I swear!! Dear was on bad mood too! That made me more sad!

Up till now, I am still emo because I didn't get to enjoy good food yet!!!!

Time to upload my pictures!

Cheers!!

I am tired?!

2011-11-17T22:59:00.001+08:00

Ever since school start, I have been feeling unhappy, stress, tired and miserable for some reason which yet to discovered by me. The lessons aren't too tough right now but I can't absorb much of the things taught by the lecturers. I feel like a useless person somehow when my course mate who aren't in the legal industry able to remember what the lecturer taught.

I don't know how long more these feelings will going to bug me. Maybe it's still the beginning that I feel so and maybe after I am more familiar to my current situation and used to it I will be fine. This is what I hoped ever since then.

I kinda hate myself for feeling insecure most of the time. I felt lost.

I have been trying to cheer up myself in many ways. Reading manga and laugh by myself amused me a lot, that's the way I de-stress myself now. However, it doesn't seem to be working all the time and I need to did more nice an interesting manga so that I can continue to do so.

Wanted to go to sing but don't know when I will have the chance an the right people to sing with. I miss those days during secondary school where we go sing karaoke with my classmates and the 1st time my friend celebrate my birthday with me. I really miss those days. My 1st birthday celebration that planned by my friends.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I don't feel excited at all. Maybe it's because I'm not with my family and friends this year. Oh my god! My tears are over-flowing! I miss them! Trying to control my tears in the train now. I look pathetic now. I'm looking forward to the dinner this Saturday since tomorrow I have to attend class.

Happy Birthday to myself!!

Here's some pictures to cheer up myself and my post.

Picture of my self motivating during the time I was bored in class (I love cute things!)

And there's the hard boiled egg my dear prepare for my Chinese Lunar Birthday. I don't even remember that it was my lunar birthday then till my mummy asked my sis to remind me to at least boil some eggs.

And not to left out, 11.11.11 which will happen only once in a thousand tears. Dear gave me a surprise! I wasn't expecting anything from him and when I received the present, I feel so loved.

End here. I did cheered up a bit till end of this post. See ya!

Update

2011-11-02T17:43:00.001+08:00

Long time never update here. School started on Monday and today there will be a make up lecture for yesterday's lecture, Law of Tort. 3 hours lecture, I wonder how am I going to keep myself focus.

Met new friend(s). Erm, or should I say course mate?

Boss back from Australia. He look exactly like my big boss (his father) now after he had a skin head hairstyle 3 months ago.

Less time spent with my lovely baby.. I'm kinda worried that our relationship will get worst. Less communications. I know less about what he has been doing and stuff. My love for him is always there for sure but in return, sometimes he gave me cold shoulders.

Up to now, planning where to go for my birthday. Still thinking..

To be continued. Love

Tart

2011-10-13T18:21:00.001+08:00

Today, my colleague talk nonsense again. He asked this question all of sudden:

Him: Do you like to eat tarts?
Me: What sort of tarts?
Him: Any tarts like egg tarts?
Me: Chocolate tarts and egg tarts. Why?
Him: Just asking. Are you a tart?
Me: Huh? No?!
Him: Really?
Me: No.
Him: You know what is the meaning of tart or not?
Me: Erm, short form of retard?
Him: *laughs* No, it's T. A .R. T.

I quickly google for dictionary. And found a few definition of the word. Then answer revealed.

Tart is not just the food that we ate. It also mean prostitute or slut and some other synonyms. 1 word has got so many meaning in it which can fool people around. Amazing!

Luckily, I answered NO! Or else I would be a laughing stock for him. He failed to fool me and yet I learned something new. he even taught me that American use tart to describe a prostitute or slut.

I can say that my this colleague is smart. However, he is too lazy and he likes to fool around. So, it's kind of wasted. He is so wasted.

Sometimes, it's good to have someone like him in office. Office won't be full of boredom other than working.

JiinJiin

Holiday at Taiwan

2011-10-10T18:43:00.001+08:00

Been out of Singapore for about 10 days. Went to Taiwan for holidays. It was amazing.

My first destination was Taichung. I took leave from Wednesday onwards. Took 2 cab to Changi airport at about 2 in the afternoon, checked in and wait for our flight. Went with my dear dear and his parents. Reach Taoyuan International Airport at about 8.30pm and hired a car to Taichung. Reached there about 11pm and had problem finding our booked hotel. Took another taxi from Taichung locals and found the location however, later found out that our place to stay was at another location where near Fengchia University and night market. It was kind of a homestay without a family. Only us 4 person will be staying there in a shophouse-like apartment. The rooms were comfy but the bathroom was kind of disappointment. When we settled down with our luggage, we went downstairs for food. Fengchia night market opens till 1 midnight! Can you believe it? At 1st, we were worried about our dinner and yet we had them within our doorsteps. At a lot of night market snacks there. I also had stinky preserved beancurd which I have never dream that I would eat them. I had my virgin bite on the stinky beancurd which taste nice in your mouth not around your nose. I really can't believe I ate them. It was really nice!

We stayed in Taichung for the next 3 days for our photoshooting session with La Fatte Wedding. It was a good experience. I didn't do good in the shooting session. I was nervous. I just couldn't smile properly. And the worst thing is I can't smile with my teeth seen. I am not photogenic at all. I need specific angle to look pretty. We went to a flower garden, a motel (famous in Taichung) to take the photos. Spent an additional $700 other than the photo shooting for the entrance fees and etc.

The motel there was nice. Suitable only for couples because there ain't a divider for the shower and toilet bowl. There's a jacuzzi for 2, private swimming pool and a very big dressing mirror. The bed was comfy too! They say the motel is for people who want to have some "privacy" with their lovers. You guys should get what I mean here. I will want to try to stay there for one night. Just one night will do because it's expensive.

After the all day long of photo shooting, we change our accommodation to a better hotel. It was also near Fengchia night market. We settle put dinner there every night. Think of the snacks there made me hungry.

The next day, we went to La Fatte to choose our picture. It was a disappointment as we took 400 over pictures but we only can choose 30 of the 400. It made us emo. All those other pretty pictures need to be discarded. Everything is money and cents when you request for more soft copy of the photos. We spent another day there filtering our photos. After all the trouble, we went to take train to Taipei directly. At 1st, I planned to go Kaohsiung but end up dropping the idea. Took the High Speed Railway to Taipei and change to MRT to Ximen Station. We stayed at Ximending for the remaining days.

We went to Danshui, Jiufen, Taipei 101, Shihlin night market, Longshan Temple and Keelung. Buy and eat all the way.

I also manage to go Modern Toilet cafe and Hello Kitty Sweets cafe. The food there was not bad. Hello Kitty Sweets was good yet expensive.

It was an unforgettable trip. Post some of the photos to share with you guys.

The day before I leave for vacation

2011-09-27T18:33:00.001+08:00

Today, been busy with work so that I can finish off my outstanding letters and etc.

Did final research for my trip as well. I'm so proud of myself for planning the itinerary all by myself. At least, I have settled the information for transportation when we reach Taiwan International Airport. No need to feel like a fly not knowing how and where to go. Searched for night markets around our hotel in Taichung so that we can find our way to feast easily. It's all within walk distance. I am kind of worried of my menses.

Had a bad omen about it. My best friend didn't visit me on time and yet feel like it is visiting me soon during my holidays. If it's true then FML. Hopefully best friend visit later after I'm back from holiday (pray hard). Otherwise, I will not be able to go hot-spring that I wish to go for ages. I love hot bath in a tub! How nice and relaxing (imagining). Really hope that my best friend would spare my life. Let me enjoy after so long of hard work and I will not be able to enjoy anytime before I graduate! Grrrrr!!!

I'm drooling for Taiwan food already! Wanna shop like mad!

Kinda anxious for tomorrow's flight. My 1st overseas trip ever.

Last night did my nails.
Theme: Sweet Paris (thumb by Easy Nail Art Stamps) with ribbons and lace stickers.

Like this design so much. Another thing to feel proud of myself. Muahahahahaha!

Here's the picture and bon voyage to myself! Back to blog when I came back from my trip!

Monday 26 September 2011

2011-09-26T18:16:00.001+08:00

Today, I can say it's not really my day even I have no Monday Blues.

Received the luggage bag I asked from Raj with underwear in the bag. I thought that it was a nasty joke from him but it end up that their maid didn't clear the bag properly. And he said it was his uncle's underwear.

Then, went to the bank to withdraw salary and bank in appropriately. I was so regret that I didn't ask Raj to encash for me. I left the office only 5 min before him and yet I waited more than 30 minutes for my turn while he met people he know and jump queue.

Then I went to buy my lunch. Decided to eat vegetarian mixed rice and ordered seaweed, lotus root and Tomyum beancurd with brown rice. I paid for the food and collect my packed rice. When I reached office and opened my packed lunch, it was different from what I ordered. It was exchanged by the stall hawker when packing. It became fried Maggi with vegetarian fish, Tomyum beancurd (at least thus is one of what I have ordered) and mixed vegetable. Told my friendly colleague and they say the food I choose is not some common food that is acceptable by majority. I prayed and hope that the person who took my pack of lunch is okay with what I choose.

Then, Raj suddenly make fun of me saying I saw his uncle's underwear and laugh like it's very funny. He says "later tonight you will have a nightmare of an old man wearing the underwear on his head" and he laugh again. I say him 变态 (pervert/sicko) and he repeats and told Steph about it.

End my day by carrying a big black NS Men luggage home.

Today I took a picture of my cute Pala-Chan (Toshiba mouse) at work. See how cute!!

Yoyoyo!!

2011-09-25T21:56:00.001+08:00

Yoyoyo!!

2 more days to Taiwan! I'm so excited! Haven't pack my luggage properly yet. Hopefully I will be in a pink health during my vacation! Gonna enjoy my holidays!

Been emotional again during my weekend.

When is the time where I will not bother again? Seriously, I really buck up for a better life.

Bought new luggage, epilator, some nail polish, and a new water container.

Gonna be really broke!

Gonna start my part time studies soon. Real soon! It's like OMG! Why so soon?? Nah, nevermind. Since I will gonna be studying for 2.5 years and as soon I study the faster I graduate.

Need to sleep early. Tomorrow will be a busy day. Fighting!!!

XOXO

My Beloved

2011-09-22T19:06:00.001+08:00

It's a rainy day again today. My baby accompanied me to take train to work. It's drizzling when we step out from the house. I shared an umbrella with him hugging me tightly. I feel so blessed. He took the trouble to send me to work even it took part of his time and his transportation fees.

He used to send me to work like 2 years back because I'm still new in Singapore. He stopped when I know the way to work.

I only can say "thank you baby, I feel blessed." to him. I did not said it to him yet but I did post on my Facebook page telling everybody of his sweet action.

I miss my mummy today and I edited her photo which I stolen from my sister.

I can see her pretty face whenever I want now.

I love you mummy. No matter what I did in the past, you are always there for me and yet I left you and went to Singapore. I'm sorry for my selfishness.

Here is my mummy, the best person in my life.

LOL FOR THE DAY =)

2011-09-21T11:13:00.001+08:00

Today, my senior paralegal ask us a question.

Senior: What is the 1st symptom of mental illness?
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Us: Hallucinating? Over paranoid?

Senior: The centre of the palm grows hair.

Us: "Checking on our palm and wondering if it's possible to grow hair on our palm."

Senior: Now, do you know what is the second symptom of Mental illness?

Answer: When you checking on your palm.

哭過就好了

2011-09-19T18:23:00.001+08:00

This song always touches my heart.

When you are deeply in love and one day, the person whom you love with all your heart leave you, what else you can do other than crying?

We all really hope that cry can soothe our feelings better and let us forget all the bad things happened to us.

Here, I share the lyric of this song to everyone of you who reading my blog. Listen to the song. Understand the lyrics.

哭過就好了

主唱 : 梁文音

不喜歡懷疑什麼
並不表示我　沒有感受
看你微妙的變化　慢慢不同
我不是生氣　只是心痛

＊最討厭被誤會了
　但越解釋越　　覺得難過
　你可以說人會變　但不能說
　你會這麼做　是我的錯

　哭過就好了　傷都會好的
　這樣相信所以深呼吸　著割捨
　愛是為了擁抱為了牽手
　不是為了爭吵為了調頭＊

＃哭過就好了　痛都會走的
　記憶有限所以它會淘汱壞的
　失眠聽歌　想念雖然苦澀
　還是謝謝你讓我長大了＃

Repeat＊＃

越多美好堆疊的過往
想忘就得推倒更大的悲傷
要找勇氣卻不在口袋或手上
但它一定在我身上某個地方

獨白:
我從來都不說不
不是因為我願意
是因為我愛你

我從來都不生氣
不是因為我沒有脾氣
是因為我愛你

我從來都不哭
不是因為我沒有眼睙
是因為我愛你

哭過就好了　痛都會走的
記憶有限所以它會淘汱壞的
失眠聽歌　想念雖然苦澀
還是謝謝你讓我長大了

Color my nails

2011-09-13T14:57:00.001+08:00

Recently, I have bought a lot of nail polishes and nail art items from friends and online. I'm getting addicted by all those pretty colors and designs. I also been watching a lot of YouTube videos on how to design pretty nails.

My tool box eventually grow larger time by time. I've been trying out all sorts of east design from the beginning.

Hungry Ghost Month 2011

2011-08-02T11:37:00.000+08:00

This year's Hungry Ghost Month arrive earlier than last year. They say that this year's ghost will be more fierce than previous years. I wonder why say so? Is it due to the natural disasters? Death toll increased a lot since last year. More and more people died due to disasters and accidents. The tsunami and earthquake took a lot of lives this year. Global warming ain't a joke! More disasters might coming and the coming years' Hungry Ghost Month will be getting more fierce than this year.

Some people who are sensitive will know our "good friends" presence during this month. I have experience in encounter our "good friends" during Secondary School. Same goes to my family members. All of them seen the "good friends" mostly during the lunar 7th Month (Hungry Ghost Month). Most of the people say that Singapore is consider one of the most haunted country. In my opinion, Malaysia and Singapore is equally haunted and had almost the same type of spirits/ghost. For example, "Banana-tree ghost", a female ghost which dwells in a banana tree, often haunting under the tree by appearing at night and wailing sadly, sometimes carrying a baby. Folk tales in Singapore and Malaysia tell stories of greedy people asking for lottery numbers from this ghost by tying a red string around the tree trunk and sticking sharp needles into it, then tie the other end of the string to his/her bed. At night, the ghost will appear at the bed of the person asking for mercy and granting the person lottery numbers. After winning the lottery prize money, if the person did not fulfill the promise to set the ghost free, he/she will meet with a tragic death. The Hungry Ghost is the most common ghost on the streets. They roam the streets for foods.

My encounters were all in Malaysia. I find it Malaysia is much more haunted than Singapore as all my previous encounters were there. I have been staying in Singapore and I heard quite some stories from the fellow folks here.

My first encounter was during Secondary 1. It was late evening of lunar 7 month. I reached home about 7 something in the night and was prepare to bath. When I opened my old cupboard, I saw a little girl sitting in it. I was shocked and uttered bad words. It vanished in the air.

My last encounter was at school. During Secondary 4 late-afternoon, in the music club room, my friend and I was in the club room chatting. The club room was initially a female toilet and it was un-used. The school authorities turned the toilet into a club room so that they can keep their guitars in the room for co-curriculum activities. The last door for the cubicle were close and there was no one in there at that time. My friend and I was curious and opened the door. I saw a shadow of a man squatting on the table and it rushed towards me. I was shocked. A force came out of the room and paralyzed my face. I had difficulties in breathing at that moment. I run out of the club room so that I could breathe easily. The club room is a concealed room. No sunlight can go into the room. The room has been chill for a very long time. I cry out of shock and difficulty of breathing. This was the worst encounter ever.

I do not wish to encounter any of this anymore as my last encounter terrified me.

*Wish all the "GOOD FRIENDS" have a fun Hungry Ghost Festival!*

How to say?

2011-07-27T09:59:00.000+08:00

Not doing good recently. Feel restless. Always got offended. Mind stucked up for some time. I really don't know what to say about my life. I feel sad yet looking forward for good things that will only happen only once in a blue moon. Can I really say out what I am unhappy about? Man can really never be trusted for some reason. I won't trust a man easily. Ever since I find out that no matter how much trust and honesty you put on a man, it will not assure you won't get hurt. I got hurt. Yet, I'm the one who going to mend my own wounds. I believe that I am actually lying to myself most of the time, trying to convince myself and put in trust and honesty in a man. Seriously, I'm really tired. If I am single, will it be better? What if I feel lonely? Will there be anyone to keep me accompany? I don't really want to be a woman who needs a man. What if I really need a shoulder to lean on during my bad days? I have not much friends left thou. So, who will be there while I'm far from my family and KL friends? Who will then take care of me when I am sick? Kind of disappointed in life.

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2011-07-20T15:55:00.001+08:00

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It has been so long since then...

2011-07-20T15:03:00.003+08:00

Dear friends,

It has been so long ever since the last time I update my blog.

There's been quite a lot of happening by then till now.

Work
I learnt so many things up till now in my current firm, seeing different type of people and happenings. Most people here are for criminal matters. So much exciting stories from each and every person. My bosses are nice. Big boss is a ex-police officer and currently practicing as a lawyer in criminal matters. My boss is a newbie in legal industry, side by side we learn together. It was not as stress as my first job in Singapore. Sometimes, my boss does scold when he is totally pissed off with the work and mess he is facing. But then, he still is a nice guy. I have nice colleague here. All of them. So, working here quite happy. Only sometimes when there is something to rush, everyone will feel stress then everyone will got bad mood.

Studies
Frankly speaking, I haven even start to save the money for studying. Even I have determined to take Diploma in Paralegal Studies, I still need some time to prepare myself mentally and physically. I worried that I will fail in my studies like the last time and wasted the money. So, I still have time till next year to start my studies. Before my time restricted by studies, I will enjoy as much as I could now. I've planned for Taiwan trip on 28 September 2011 till 7 October 2011.

Relationship
Overall okay. My baby has been getting busy recently. Less time for sleep and less time for me. Only during his semester break he is free. Our relationship is kind of husband and wife relationship. We have been together for 3 years and now, we sort of communicate less. Sometimes, I still feel insecure about our relationship. He is getting more and more friends while I still remain the same. I wonder why those new friends of his mostly girls, very young girls. I am a jealous person. Every time he sms some girls, he would delete the content of the conversation. This is the reason why I have been feeling so insecure. Even if he says it's nothing and just simple conversation which the other party reply only a few words, still I feel like there's something happening. I choose to believe him but I don't believe him fully. Ask me why? If he ever cheat on me while I believe him 100% I am the one who die with grudges and sadness. I am the one hurt most. Hurt to the extend of wanted to commit suicide. I've got hurt so many times and it's difficult for me to fully heal. When I am with my 1st boyfriend, he hugged some other girls without me knowing when there are only the 2 of them. I found out easily as my six sense told me that he cheated on me. He admitted. My 2nd boyfriend lied to me. I saw there's a girl that he has been contacting a lot and taking about our relationship things. When he say he want to break up, I questioned him whether he is in love with this girl and he denied. In the end we end the relationship peacefully and not long he got together with the girl who has husband and a baby girl. My six sense has been always right about something fishy about my boys. I don't know whether this time, am I just thinking too much or it's real. However, I still love my baby a lot and choose to trust him. I really hope we can last forever without cheating or covering or lying. I want a pure and honest relationship with him. No hidden motive or so on. Moreover, my baby has such weird attitudes which I have to keep up with. Sometimes, I really feel hard to keep up as I am swallowing the bombs he gave me. I don't know when my limit of tolerance reach and burst. I hope, we can try to look for a better solutions of all these matters.

Financial
Financially, not stable at all. Didn't manage to save money till now. A lot of things to spend on. Hopefully, by then I can save up money for future use. Starting after I'm back from Taiwan Trip!

Health
I can say that my health deteriorated. Officially having asthma now. Need to rely on the pump whenever I feel unable to breathe properly and when played too hard with my baby. Sleep at least a little bit improved as I am having less dreams during the night. Sometimes I still dream weird things but not as much as before.

Friendship
I have connecting some of my primary school friends which I did not contacted for a decade. Seriously miss them. Especially those who used to be close with me like PCW,CKYhen, CKYee. I took quite some time to get them. I'm really gonna see those pretty girls when I go back to KL. I miss my secondary school friends as well.

Experiences
I had a wonderful BBQ during Vesak day. Even though it's been quite troublesome going to get the raw material and prepare the whole night and get up early in the morning, it's really fun.
Had experience ice-skating for the 1st time during Ruoyu's Birthday. Had a lot of fun thou.
Went to Sentosa beach. Went to Marina Bay Sands. Eat lots of good food. Planning on more activities soon. I had fun too after the hectic office hours.

I'm looking forward for more things to happen in my life so that I can be a happier person.

Fucked up life? I want a wonderful life!

2010-08-24T13:15:00.000+08:00

My life isn't doing great recently.
Changing work place, use a lot of money, and stuff.
I used a lot of money these 2 months.
I didn't even really saved some money to further my studies.
There's a lot of things that I cannot say out bluntly in my blog.
I keeping secrets within me. I can't share what I'm thinking.
Even if I shared, they wouldn't understand.
I don't know what can I do. I feel lost.
I have so many things to do or need to do or wanted to do!
Plans that need to be fulfill.
Back at KL home, family relationship also not good. I thought mom and dad finally getting better with each other but it seems nothing much to repair and it only worsen. Relationship between sister, brother with dad also not good as usual and worsen.
Only my relationship with them remains.
I don't know what can I say here.

My 101 bored post!

2010-07-04T15:02:00.000+08:00

My blog is seriously dead! Count how many post I post within June?

What to do? Not thing much to record down. Things I recorded will not be view as often as I'm a boring person once in a while but I ain't a funny person thou. Can see what I am trying to say?

Kinda weird huh?

I think my blog is only for me to record my bullshit things. Recently spent a lot of money~ Seriously lot!

I really don't know how to save money recently! A lot of things wanna buy and do and eat!!!!

Imma becoming a pig soon! Like to eat and sleep. My attitude recently is seriously awful and pissed off people easily.

Am I difficult to communicate with?

Or things I'm thinking is weird?

My job is consider stable for now~

My relationship? We do quarrel once in a while because of the same shit! I think that something wrong with me.

I just can't accept how is he like?

Since he attract a lot of girls in his life and friends are so important to him. Yea! For a guy, friends are important and he need social. However, sometimes I find it too much~

Okay! I'm the one who unreasonable. I'm over possessive. Because I love him and I want him be mine!

1 word to describe : SELFISH!

Suit me well thou. I'm being super EMO recently.

What to do? I'm a ATTENTION SEEKER!

So?? Hit me? Scold me? or pissed me off? Or just kick my butt?

I'm saying stupid things here thou.

Who would believe that I have a super brain even my boss said so??

Okay! Stop the crap here and imma going to see what to do next!

Jiin Jiin

My Personality Test

2010-06-18T11:14:00.001+08:00

Trait		Raw Percentage
Openness		81%
Conscientiousness		50%
Extraversion		69%
Agreeableness		69%
Neuroticism		63%

Trait Explanations

In order to interpret your raw trait scores, they were compared to the first 350,000 people to complete the full MyPersonality Big Five questionnaire. This allows the way that you described yourself to be put in the context of how other people respond to the questionnaire. You should remember that there are no fundamentally good or bad personalities, as each trait description has potential advantages and disadvantages. To help you reflect on these, you have also been given some questions which ask you to consider the implications of your trait descriptions. Other people viewing your personality profile will not be able to see these.

Openness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer novelty versus convention. Approximately 73% of respondents have a lower openness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is intellectually curious and appreciative of what you consider beautiful, no matter what others think. You might say that your imagination is vivid and makes you more creative than many others.

Reflective question: How important are your emotions in determining how you behave?

Conscientiousness

This trait refers to the extent to which you prefer an organised, or a flexible, approach in life. Approximately 24% of respondents have a lower conscientiousness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is spontaneous and fun, and that you like to do unexpected things that make life that bit more interesting. You might say that you aren't completely unreliable, but you've been known to slip up on occasion.

Reflective question: How do you go about tackling a new task?

Extraversion

This trait refers to the extent to which you enjoy company, and seek excitement and stimulation. Approximately 62% of respondents have a lower extraversion raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who is energetic and active. Your answers describe you as someone who enjoys and actively seeks out social occasions, and that you especially enjoy talking with a big group of people.

Reflective question: Do you prefer to be busy all the time? Why?

Agreeableness

This trait refers to the way you express your opinions and manage relationships. Approximately 62% of respondents have a lower agreeableness raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who people get along with easily. Your responses suggest that you would say you are considerate and friendly, and think that other people are generally honest and decent.

Reflective question: Is your co-operative preference ever taken advantage of by others?

Neuroticism (Emotional stability)

This trait refers to the way you cope with, and respond to, life's demands. Approximately 92% of respondents have a lower neuroticism raw percentage than yours. From the way you answered the questions, you seem to describe yourself as someone who tends to be more self-conscious than many. Based on your responses, you come across as someone who can find it hard to not get caught up by anxious or stressful situations. You might say that you are in touch with your own feelings.

Reflective question: When do you not feel in control of your emotions?

I seriously agree on those thing that as stated.

Jiin Jiin

Recently.... Ever since....

2010-05-12T14:07:00.000+08:00

I stopped writing my blog since the last post where I said will update more frequent. But I didn't do that. Till now, it has been so long. Really a lot of things happened recently that really pissed me off! Especially ever since he's in poly. I'm here just to blast out all my grudge so that I won't be so upset. I kinda hate my life for now. I wonder if I'm still me. Or really split personality. I'm so pissed of most of the things happened. It's like not much happy moments for me and him. Mostly boring days of elderly couple like. I hate to say this but I have to. I don't want my feelings hidden and makes me grumpy. I don't really like his poly new friends. Its like when they find him for chat, I will be left behind doing nothing or don't know what can I do while he is entertaining them mostly at night. I know I should give him privacy. But sometimes it's really irritating when some girls come sms your bf stupid nonsense and your bf entertain them! I'll easily get jealous and grumpy because of such things. I like his ITE girl-friend Cindy even sometimes I do jealous of her. At least, she is very understanding. His new poly girl-friends are all xmm and hyperactive type, inconsiderate and full of nonsense. I do feel myself nonsense at time but they seems to be not self-aware. I wonder how he can tolerate with such people when he find me and my personality annoying sometimes.

Yea. You said I think too much. In fact, yes! I think much because you make me think so. If you didn't do something that really pissed me off or the way you talk to other girls, I won't be so.

It's all my fault thou because I'm sensitive. I know you won't like it. I have job and few friends but no family to support me in Singapore so you are important and a family to me. Even I said to be more independent, I'm already trying very hard. Sometimes, I want to tell you and talk to you face-to-face but I can't speak a word and I afraid to pissed you off and you will hate me. I just want you to understand what I'm trying to say and what I wanted. I give you time but sometimes you take things for granted. I'm sorry if I push you too hard. I'm trying to accept but it only make me upset but pushing you too hard make you upset. Both of us will hurt each other if we didn't get what we personally want. Every time I wanted to hate you but at the end I can't. Every time I'm angry with you but at the end wipe of everything and be good with you. What is forcing me to do so behind me?

You know I love you deeply in heart and I know that you love me. I love your morning hugs and kisses. I love you. I just want you to understand me more. To be together need sacrifices.

Love you.

Jiin Jiin

Things in my mind

2010-04-21T12:20:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. I said before that I will update my blog more often even if nobody is reading but it seems that I can't update regularly. Its not that I'm super busy (I'm busy) to write my blog. Somehow, I feel so lazy of doing anything. Wanting for a super long break. It seems like I'm tired of something?

Yea. Tired of working lor. Especially working with people who treat u as a threat. Feel not comfortable at all. However, I have 2 understanding bosses. That makes me feel better. I'm lazy now. OMG! I don't know what to do now. I didn't help Kelly at all. Feel sorry to her but I'm so tired of doing typing after all the typing given by boss for the last 2 weeks. Everything is only typing and formatting. Sometimes, I feel stress when bosses trusting my work too much. Told Dear Dear this and he says this type of stress is a good stress and proof that I am capable of doing work. Somehow, I feel over stress if anything happens to the documents then I'm the one to be blamed. I know my boss appreciate my work and believe that I can do a good job for him, but I somehow feel stress and I'm always afraid of doing things wrongly. I don't have much confidence in myself because I'm always being doubt by someone who did not trust me ever since I'm young. I'm not a good girl at that time too, so I think that's the reason why people won't believe in me.

A lot of things happened in my life which I've experienced. Happy, sad, disappointed, lost faith, suffer and sorts of feelings but I just won't grow mature (different people different point of view). In some people's eyes, I'm still a kid who doesn't know the world. But I understand that we have to experience all sort of happenings to grow.

Someone said that I'm wicked. I smile wickedly. First time ever heard that in my life. Say I 人小鬼大。I wonder if I am? Coming out to Singapore to work at the age of 19? Consider 人小鬼大? I'm so surprised that I made such decision. I'm really not a good girl. Hmmm..

Recently, saving money to buy stuff to keep myself pretty start from skin supplements. Join Cozycot for more reviews on the items that I'm interested in. Somehow gain more product knowledge upon reading the descriptions and reviews. I'm surprised that Cozycot just have their outlets in Singapore at Orchard Central. I'm really gonna visit to the outlet for more product information and stuff.

Okay. Gonna be busy now.

Jiin Jiin

Another week to pass

2010-04-06T18:04:00.000+08:00

Being a lawyer is not easy. Being a Paralegal/Secretary also not that easy. Gotta get everything prepared for lawyers and so much of stress to carry on our shoulder.

It's Tuesday today.

This morning, I nearly can't wake up to work. Never had a good sleep like this. I've set my alarm but don't know why the volume of the ringer is so low where I can't even hear anything. Luckily I can wake up in time before late. This morning is a rush for me. Rush to office, rush to done the documents and can't even finish my lunch 1 shot where I need to go downstairs for commissioning because the lawyer din come up to the office. *Sigh.

Things not going smoothly for today.

Gonna work over time today due to the lousy photocopier machine.

Take 2 hours to complete 1 scan to the EFS pc. Boss sms-ed me to check on the status for the e-filing of the documents but I gave a bad news to him. He asked why didn't we repair the machine earlier. However, the problem is that the documents are too bulky and need time to transfer into PDF format. And it take my whole day even night to complete the whole task given by boss. Commissioner also late due to court session. I feel bad when the things crash like this. No one can be 100% perfect in everything we do.

Wish me luck~

JiinJiin

Reviving my dead bloggie~

2010-04-02T17:08:00.002+08:00

A lot of things happened recently and I don't know where to start off.

I've been working in a new company for nearly 4 months. I like my current bosses and environment of working. Everything went smoothly. Bosses appreciate my good work. I'm proud to myself when I could help out my bosses in some arrears. Happy doing legal researches, drafting court documents and letters. Start to feel that I'm a useful person to my bosses compared to last time.

I start to saving up money for my course fees to be incurred in future where costs about S$5.5k for Paralegal Studies. Opened an eSaver account at Standard Charter and signed up another Prudential Insurance and Savings Plan. Hope everything go smoothly.

The next thing is Congratulations to my Dearx2 for entering Poly this 19th of April 2010 and My bro entering University of Tunku Abdul Rahman coming May for foundation. I feel really happy for both of them. Really proud of them. Muacks!!

I'm planning to buy a lot of stuffs to pamper myself too! Wanna get a new Gucci mini wallet, beauty products and many more! AND a LAPPY for sure!! Planning to get a Mini HP. Planning a lot of good things for myself. Wanna live happily!!

However, I really pissed off about someone.

This person is really a pain in the ass. Make me feel superb unhappy. I really started to feel like everything seems so different right after I see this person's true color. Bad attitude and personality, talk bad about other people, don't like to admit that he/she was wrong, always repeat same mistakes, always claim to be much more experience than other people, try to act young and cute when he/she doesn't look young(middle aged about 40s-50s), always interrupt people when people are busy, always pretend to be busy when he/she's not, pretend to be holy all the time, and pretend to know everything that he/she doesn't know and act smart.

I really hate this type of people. In front of you is like very good and kind but when at your back says "Hell you bitch!" Talk bad about people still pretend to be someone caring in front of you! Just hell off all your pretending. I can see your true color! Try to be nice while you are nasty? Just stop the shit! I really don't know when am I going to berserk because of U! Stab me in front of someone important? Be careful your backside then! Sooner or later if I cannot stand it anymore I will just light your backside and make you pain!

End of my stories!

Will try to be active and update more.

Loves,

Jiin Jiin

Dead blog... Berhabuk lor..

2010-02-22T16:59:00.000+08:00

OMG...

Its been so long since the last time I update my blog.

Its so dead now.

Recently, a lot of things happened.

CNY ended.

Start to work today.

Its like not much time to relax and have fun during holidays.

But I had fun during 2nd day of Chinese New Year and 5th day of Chinese New Year.

Including the days that I can be with Dear Dear..

Took a lot of pictures in KL.

But lazy to post here.. Got time then up some at here lor..

Nothing much to say already lor..

Tata..

Jiin Jiin

Oh mY!

2010-02-02T12:47:00.000+08:00

A lot of things happened recently.

Really a lot. Somehow. Its much more different than last time.

I want it to be bygone but there's words in my mind.

I can't express out all my feelings at once and this makes me feel bad.

Last night, lectured by dear dear. Fine. I listen. I try my very best.

Ever since last 2 weeks, I've been emo for a long time. Almost everyday.

Its not about working life but private life. Ok. Cut it off. Forget it.

I'm sucks in managing my life. I need attention but I can't get attention whenever I want.

I'm not a child anymore but I still act like child. Attention seeker. I hate it.

I'm tired of myself. Tired of all those problems~

I've always wanted to live in my own fairy tales but I know its impossible.

I have to work hard for achievements. I have to work hard!

Buddha oh Buddha.

Inilah takdir ku. Dengan personaliti macam ini, aku tak akan dapat apa yang ku mimpikan selama ini. Aku rasa penat dengan benda yang berlaku selama ini. Apa yang aku boleh buat ialah dengar apa yang dear dear ajar. Walaupun aku ikut cakap dia, aku masih tak boleh mengakui apa yang dia cakap adalah betul. Aku dah nak pengsan ni.

I really need a spa massage~!!

JiinJiin

Not my day

2010-01-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

Today is really not my day.

Bad things happened early in the morning.

After I bathe, I went back for a nap. I didn't realize that my alarm is not on.

I nearly can't wake up until Dear's dad come home and open the video with a loud volume.

I wake up and step out of the house to go to work.

When I'm walking to the LRT, then only i know that I forgot to bring my medicine along.

Go back and take it along with me. After that, I reach Cityhall MRT Station.

My tummy started to feel weird when I reach there. Its uncomfortable until I can't take it anymore.

Run to the washroom immediately. Diarrhea early in the morning. Then when I reach office, everything is fine.

Until my boss ask me to do something for him.

Damn bad luck today. Went to the bank to deposit cash but the Cash Deposit Machine jam and the money stuck in the machine. Then have to report to the bank. When I report to the bank, I forgotten to bring my green card along. Cannot remember my FIN No. and my PP No. No brain. Really useless.

The bank officer assist me to fill up the claim form. They will need about 3 days to check the machine, calculate the monies and stuff then only can bank in successfully. After the things done, went back to office and inform boss. Who knows when I reach office, sit in boss's room and he tell me that is bank in $100 instead of $1k. Fell really bad about that. Emo Emo Emo!!!

I really emo when I'm on my way home.I never did such big mistakes before and it involves monies~!

Oh gosh... Really moody. Stupid medicine made me blur. Sick!!

JiinJiin

*[moody]*

Loves

2010-01-12T11:01:00.000+08:00

Dear. I hope you can trust me more.

I didn't do anything bad that your back.

I didn't cheat on you.

What for I cheat on you? I don't get any benefits from that right?

I'm with you for almost 2 years and you know what person I am.

My attitude, my weird action, cry baby,

Thanks for being with me. I love you~

JiinJiin

Irritated

2010-01-11T09:25:00.000+08:00

Now, I understand that what she told me about 'her' in regards of 'her' attitude is all true.

I thought I can tolerant with 'her' even she told me its like hell.

Its indeed like hell. I understand why she will quarrel with 'her' at that time.

So this is what will happen in the future if I lost my toleration.

QUARREL~

Walao.. Sometimes I already behtahan lor. I try my best to cope with 'her' but at last 'she' mess up things 'herself'. 'She's' always like to make 'herself' busy and messy. Then come back things not in order then berserk. Things getting weird nowadays. I somehow really cannot cope with 'her'.

I told so many stories that happened to my dear and he said its my prejudice.

Now, its no longer prejudice. Its fking irritating when think of coping with this type of people.

I'm so tired. Every time think of working then immediately feel no mood.

Fine. Just scold what ever you want. Say whatever you want. I'm always deaf when listening to such asshole thing.

Mad mad mad mad !!

I try to understand 'her' but I can't.

I really don't understand 'her'

Irritated!! Damn irritated!!

JiinJiin

TGIF!!

2010-01-08T10:23:00.000+08:00

Its Friday today and time flies.

Time really FLIES!!

These 2 days didn't really blogging because my life is too ordinary and have nothing special.

The most interesting part was happened last 2 years and I didn't blog out.

Today will be a boring day again. Nothing much to do at the moment.

I feel like wasting time when I'm in the office. Its good that I'm not as busy as last time but I still feel odd when I'm too free.

Wednesday, I posted my sis's photos in Facebook. Now, I wanted to share them here.

Nice? Pretty?

Okay. I think I'm not as photogenic as her. I wanted to take good pictures too but lazy.

Hehe~ 1 word... LAZY!

I wanted to eat Ben & Jerry's Ice-cream when I saw this pic:

2 scoop about S$6-8 if not mistaken. Forgotten the price. Aww.. Yummy chocolate Ice-cream...

Besides that that, I'm waiting 1/2 Price Chapter 39 to be updated in Watchanimeon.com.

Wanted to know what happened next after the Concert of Infinite Band and confession of Fairsky to Sunshine. Waiting...waiting...waiting........

Okay. Back to real life. This is a picture that I capture when I'm on the way home taking LRT.

The LRT railways is in between of those HDB flats.

For your information, the LRT is the same as Monorail in KL. Not like LRT in KL.

Okay. Nothing much to say.

To be continued....

Jiin Jiin

89 Post - Education and Job

2010-01-05T10:23:00.000+08:00

Okay. I will have to wait for 1 more year before I can really start taking the course.

At first, I make a doubt to myself. I wonder am I really ready for the course.

I wanted to make good use of my time and wanted to improve myself.

However, every time I make decision, I still feel like I can't make it till I get the Certificate.

This is due to my studies at TARC 2 years ago which I've withdrawn from the course due to unable to catch up in most of the module.

Now, I still have 1 more year to get myself ready for the course.

Although it will be really tough for me taking a legal course but I'm sure it will help me in my career in future.

I wonder if I will continue to advance after I got my Diploma in Paralegal Studies.

It will be tough for someone like me who has a poor memory but I can see my future where I earn more than I thought.

A paralegal actually earn money by hourly rate besides than basic salary.

With that qualification and earning, I can always contribute back to my KL home without any worries.

I will make sure that I will realize my dream.

My work place here is still the same. Cold everyday!

My fingers are numb. Nose blocked. Shivering right now.

Have not much things to do after all.

Boring...

To be continued...

JiinJiin

03.01.10 and 04.01.10

2010-01-04T10:02:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is the day where I stop using money aimlessly. I mean, yesterday is the last day for using money aimlessly.

Woke up around 3 p.m. Clear my naughty Baby's cage. Getting worst nowadays. Then prepare to go out with Dear to Vivo after my necklace broken (that's after playing with Dear).

The old one 定情信物by Dear Dear when he 1st came to see me in KL.

Dear Dear's driving face look so serious but he drive really fast. Always make me wanna puke.

When we reach we walk around and stop at a jewelry shop. Dear dear bought 2 new necklaces to replace the old one. I like it so much.

After that, we looked around for dinner. We walk to a Japanese Restaurant and ordered a Seafood Ramen, Fried cuttlefish and Seafood Okos. That costs us S$36.02.

Big Shrimp

We had a great dinner and that's my last expensive meals until Chinese New Year.

Wanna save money to go home to shop and buy Dear Dear a birthday present. Reach home about 9 plus then bought ice-cream as dessert since the dessert at the restaurant were expensive. Slept about 10 plus to 11 pm.

I didn't get enough sleep though. Had a dinosaur dream.

They chase me and marked me as their food. That's a bad dream.

Its raining when I wake up. Took a hot bath early morning but it's really cold when I dry off myself.

Reach office early. Then now is like nothing to do.

To be continue...

Jiin Jiin

2010. A brand New Year

2010-01-02T14:15:00.004+08:00

Hi all. It seems to be a long time since the last time I posted something in my bloggie.
A brand new year of 2010 which means I grow older.
11 more months I will be 21 years old. Somehow, I don't feel that I want to grow up.
The older we are, the more things we have to achieve and the higher responsibility we have to take.
A lot of thing flashed through my thoughts yesterday.
I have my dreams. I have things that I wanted to do.
Somehow, I lack of that responsibility to fulfill my dreams.
2010, things that no nice be by gone and keep those nice memories.
I feel happy but at the same time unhappy.
Its not that I'm unhappy about my life. I feel moody when I think of my family who are far far away from me.
I miss my family. Recently, I've always dream about them.
Dream of my Aunties and Grandma who provide me shelter and food for about 19 years of my life.
Dream about my Mom who provides me education and entertainment for about 19 years of my life.
Dream about my Dad who always worry about me but always showing me his black face for 19 years of my life.
Dream of my sister and brother of their accompany throughout my life and worry about their future.
It seems like I have a lot of worries in my life. Worry that what will happen when I'm not around.
But I'm still a stubborn girl. I won't express my feelings to them.
I've always keep it for myself.
This time, I will do my best to achieve most things within this year.
My studies, my savings, places that I've wanted to go and others.
2010, I'm looking forward to you.
Today is the 2nd day.
Start from 4th January 2010, I will go for what I want and try to fulfill my dreams and their dreams.
Go for them!! WORK HARD, PLAY HARD!!!

Jiin Jiin

Picture that I've promised...

2009-12-13T20:31:00.014+08:00

Its been a long time till I upload my photos in my bloggie.
Here you go...
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Somehow lazy to upload~ To be continued!

The Happenings >.<

2009-11-24T17:17:00.003+08:00

A lot of things happened recently and I did not get the time to write it down every time I online in my bloggie.
Where should I start from?

In regards of my job, I feel somehow weird.
I'm climbing up higher. Will I fell down in future? In malay, Sepandai tupai melompat, akhirnya jatuh juga. I'm afraid that this phrase will happen to me.
What if I can't cope? What if I did something wrong?
I know I shouldn't think negatively. I have to think positively and do my best.
But sometimes, we can't predict whether is there any 'accidents' while working.
No matter how, I still have to do my best. Here I go climbing higher up to achive what I'v always regreted and wanted to achieve.

In regards of my relationship, still the same.
Happiness and unhappiness is equal and fair.
No one live in total happiness and no one live in total unhappiness.
For me.. I really feel unhappy about something but at the same time I feel happy about another things.
This makes my feelings so god damn complicated!
I wanted to Hate but at the same time I'm so in love.
I really hate him but I also love him. Love life makes people fly up to the heaven and fall down to the hell.
I hit him, he bite me. He tickle me, I struggle. I make him pissed off, he will make me sad.
Haiya... Really hard to control. Both of us always fight non-stop.
Sometimes he really got mad because of silly and simple mistakes I made.
Which if its you, you won't have any reaction but feel somehow 'where is this stupid girl from?' and just ignore.
He is so different to special to mad and to insane when you did something funny to him.
Somehow insane till fart on your face? Oh my god...

In regards of my health, not as healthy as always when I'm in Malaysia.
Got bitten by something which suck your blood while you are sleeping.
Not Vampire of course... Its a tiny blood sucker 6 legs insect which I don't know what it's name in English.
I think is something like Kutu Kayu in malay. They can breed very fast by sucking your blood for 1 night.
I've been bitten by them for almost 1 week and when I went back to KL, my reddish slowly disappeared.
But now, back to Singapore, my body reddish again and itching like hell.
I look so ugly... So many scar marks now. Sad.
How am I going to get rid of those tiny bastards? I've use insecticide. Sprayed all over the corner of the bed.
Still got bitten. Stomach not feeling well nowadays. Always feel nauseous as well.
Haiya... I so ke lian lor... Can't sleep well at night also (after watched paranormal activity).
Think of the night then feel not comfortable.

In regards of my birthday, my 1st present is Burberry handbag from Dear dear.
My second present is Anna Sui Live on Dream perfume from my Sis.
Then all is my present from my friends who come for my Gathering cum birthday party.
Thanks to them who gave me such lovely presents.
That day, most of them were guys. Know where were the girls??
Haiz... Mun Yee forgotten due to studies. Chin Yee feeling not well that day. Li-Jinh unable to rush to my house due to studies also. Swee Teng can't come due to work and studies for the next day. Left Kit Mun, Chee Teng and Chee Cheng who came and others all guys.
Dear dear actually look unhappy because most of my friends who turned up at that night were guys.
But thanks to you guys who coming. Or else... My food will left a lot..
Will update the photos in Facebook and bloggie after I buy a memory card reader.
During the preparations of the food, I've forgotten to add a lot of things in my Tomyum.
My sis prepared some homemade Brownies and Donuts as desert. We also prepared Jelly.
Well, the person who ate a lot is Why Leong. He really eaten a lot of Jellies. The person who was the last person leaving is Samuel.
The earliest was Chee Cheng. At the end, I feel satisfy to my 1st birthday party ever.

This is super long. I think you all who read my bloggie will feel really bored with all these alphabets.
Gotta stop here and to be continued with pictures.

Cheers,
Jiin Jiin

No more 2 in 1 for a time being~

2009-11-01T16:51:00.004+08:00

Dear Dear's parents came back from China-Taiwan trip last night and bought a lot of food~ Most of them are eggs from Taiwan~ LOL...
But they bought a milk bottle back and said it is a drinks container.

I really enjoyed the life of 2 person for the last whole week.
Even though have to do house chores but its really fun~
The house look so tidy and clean and I even get to breathe in fresher air~
I really have fun cooking for Dear Dear for the week.
Here is my favorite Self-made Tomyum Pasta~
Cheap.. Low in cost and can be eaten for 2 days if the soup kept properly. LOL

But glad they came back and he looks much more relieved and happy~

Actually I have less things to blog recently.
most of my stories is about my working life.
Well, recently know a new friend from my boss who asked me to forward her a precedent and then we become friends.
She offered me an opportunity where I can learn more things and earn better income~
With the offer, I can save more money and can go back to studies even faster compared to now.
I wonder if it really is a better place to work at even they offered me a better income?
Will it be worst than my current job?
Anyway, I should really try and do my best so that I can achieve what I want faster.
Really got a lot of things to do with money nowadays.
If I really got the job, I can buy my sis a present that she really like.
Besides, I have a lot of plan where I need money only can succeed.
Have to save up to buy Christmas present for Dear Dear, next year's valentine day, Dear Dear's coming birthday, my brother's coming birthday, my dad's coming birthday which is on Valentine day, my mummy's birthday and a lot of things that I wanted to do~
Haha. No more talking about money.
Out of topic~
Wish me good luck for tomorrow's second attempt for better future~Gambate!!!!

Jiin Jiin

The most luxurious day I've ever had for past 19 years

2009-10-26T13:54:00.011+08:00

Monday, back to working days where it is the most boring day of the week.

I really had a wonderful weekends with Dear dear who loves me a lot.
Last Friday, Dear's parents went to China for holidays.
Left the 2 of us at home and to take care of the house.
Saturday went to Orchard. Dear Dear drive :) but somehow will feel uncomfortable.
We went to Jiwon @ Wheelock first to cut our hair. That already cost us $65 for 2 person.
Next Dear Dear brought me to DFS Burberry to see bags for my birthday.
We went there and I saw a new collection of Burberry bags which is just launched not long ago.
This is the 1st time I see something I like so much. After that we went to ION to compare.
If buy at ION is only for 1st 50 customers to get the parking fees rebate while DFS they got Dining vouchers $50 at Goodwood Park Hotel.
We went to DFS and Dear Dear bought the bag for my birthday.
My first branded bag~!!!! I'm so happy.
However, Dear Dear kept it with him and say I will not see or touch the bag until my birthday
LOL... I only can see the picture of the bag... Here it is~
New collection~ Just launch not long ago. And I like the key chain. Very nice and simple.
That already cost my Dear Dear $895~ 5 months within 1 day.
I think he will feel heartache but I will DO MY BEST to give him what he want for his birthday, Christmas, valentine and etc~Since I will be moving on for my future in Singapore.
Later then we receive the voucher and plan to go for dinner at Goodwood Park Hotel directly.
We went to take the car and the parking fees is God Damn expensive!! There goes another $10.
Back to dinner topic~ Our dinner is really something!!
Taiwanese Porridge Buffet~!! Its the 1st time I had and the 1st time at such high class place~

Nice food served but its really expensive~ It costs us $77.70 (dinner for 2). We thought of using the voucher given but then we forgotten to check the terms and condition and then, the bad news is we cannot use the voucher and we have to pay since the voucher is only for Ala-carte orders.
After the meals we head back home because we are poor after our luxurious day. In total, we spent $1k but of course Dear Dear spent the most compared to me~

Here are a few of my pictures after the hair cut and pictures of me and my Dear...

Jiin Jiin

Blamed

2009-10-17T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling really bad now...
I wanna cry out loud.. I really tired of everything..
I'm the one to be blamed..
I'm the one who cause his losing his friends and stuffs..
I'm the one making him poor..
I'm the one making him feel so lifeless...
Why do I exist in this world since I feel that I'm so extra no matter what.
My heart really pain.
I had enough of this.
I wanna run away!
Anyway to change my miserable life to a better life?
Or just exterminate me from the world will do.
It seems like my existence only makes people suffer..
I can take pain no more.
Is this place really not suitable for me at all?
Why I still can't jump out from the box from last time?
I'm really useless..
I only know how to ruin things in people's life.
Like today, I'm the one to be blamed.
To make a birthday girl upset.
If I do not exist in the first place, no one will upset.
I thought tonight will be an enjoyable night but it ends up differently..
It makes all people around me sad.
I used 1 hour to make up and stuffs so that I can enjoy my night happily.
It didn't last. By the time I reached Cine, I started to feel bad.
We end up never eat dinner. We end up going home separately.
I end up blogging here and just can't stop crying while he ran to her to borrow a listening ears.
Where is my listening ears then?
Told Andrea the incident but I still not feeling good.
The moment they went off for their own dinner and we stayed behind.
I feel like I ruined everything.
He actually planned to take care of my boredom and loneliness for the day but end up nothing.
It didn't help but ruined everything.
I it really my fault? I really don't have friends in Singapore.
Who can I rely to?

JiinJiin

I'm Blank

2009-10-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what am I thinking right now..
A lot of things just crossed my mind but then I just dunno what it is for now.
I'm totally blank...
I feel that I'm leading myself to Otaku life.
I have less friends to be by my side now and somehow feel really empty.
Everyday manga, anime, and Facebook.
Thats all I have for my day without friends to go out with.
As always, friends are important to me but all my friends is no longer available for me.
Currently, the person who lend me her listening ears is Nurul, my new colleague.
Even I do meet new friend in Singapore but its just not the same as in Malaysia.
Maybe you will ask me whether do I regret of coming to Singapore alone without friends and family to support me.
My answer will still be the same.
I'm the one who decide to come here.
Regret or not is not an issue for me but I wonder why I have such miserable feelings.
I'm writing my bloggie with tears now but I don't know the reason of crying.
I just feel tired in the bottom of my heart.
I'm really tired.
I wanted to borrow someone's shoulder for me to cry and rely for some moment.
Who will be there for me?
Recently really can't contact Kit Mun... I'm worried about her..
I wanted to sleep for a long long time.
Don't want to wake up for few years.
Wanted every things in my life to be good and happy.
Wanted every moment I live memorable and happy.
As always, I feel really tired.
Tired of all the craps...
Disappointed.
I'm talking crap right now.
Fuck up life.
I wanted to run away from reality.
I hate reality!! I hate you!!
I can;t stop crying till now. Its feel like crying for no reason.
No one be there for me.
No one is willing to give me a warm hug at this moment.
Yea, I'm a weirdie. What can you do to me?
I'm insane. I'm stupid. And that is the way I am.
Even if I tried to change myself is still no use.
I am who I am.
A blank minded person with such miserable life.
I wanted to run out from the house now but I have nowhere to go.
Running away have to use money and I don't wanna waste that kind of money as I wanted to keep money to further my studies here.
However, I still didn't manage to save most of my money.
I end up doing nothing at last.
The feeling of hating myself comes back to me.
I've thrown it away for a very long time but now it came back for me.
Knn!@#$%^&*F*ck!! Cb!! Sh*t!! Damn@#$! B*tch.
Really wanna shout the fuck out of my lungs~!!!!

I'm really out of my mind~
I can't hide the hatred of myself..

JiinJiin

My Friday

2009-10-09T09:19:00.002+08:00

Oh gosh..
Its finally Friday (TGIF).
I actually found that my bloggie really really boring without pics (Paiseh, lazy upload).
Ok. This morning overslept in the bus AGAIN and missed 1 stop then die die walk back to office for about 10 min.
Yesterday worst and its not my good day (Paiseh, forgotten mention in last night's post).
Yesterday overslept till I reach Queenstown then only I quickly run back to office and I late for about 10 min. Was wearing black while walking under the 9 a.m. sun. (HOT!)
Back to today, might be a good day at work because OM is on leave and boss will be out till lunch time. But I still have a bunch of works to do and to check those files if there is anything urgent to update/follow up.
My job really become tough compare to last time.
Handling a lot of files and sometimes even have to update boss's diary.

1 more day is Xiao Bai farewell. He will go to his new home at Hillview Heights.
His new owner will be a 21 year old, Indonesian-chinese girl.
From our conversation, I found that she is a nice girl and an animal-lover.
I hope Xiao Bai will happy to be with her.
Baby this few days look kinda moody. Maybe because she know that I'm going to separate her with her kits. Every time I open her cage's door, she won't come out. Until a while when she come out, she will go directly to the kit's cage and sit side by side with them even she is outside the cage.
Xiao Bai and Hei Hei getting fatter compare than last time.
Fei Fei also getting fat but still not as fat as Xiao Bai and Hei Hei.
These choosy little kits only choose to eat Alfalfa pallets.
They will left the Timothy pallets aside. Naughty.
I afraid that when we send Xiao Bai to his new home, dear dear and me will cry.
However, since I become friend with Xiao Bai new owner, Eliz, we still can see the updates of Xiao Bai's pictures and progress.

Ok. Its time to work now.
Buzz....
'._.-'*<>

Jiin Jiin

Things in my life❤

2009-09-28T19:58:00.006+08:00

During this 1 year plus, a lot of things happened to me and to him.
My worst experience with him is... forgotten...
I don't wish to remember those unhappy things. Actually, when I come to think of it, I have nothing much to say about our relationship.
I only hope that everything go smoothly, we trust each other, keep promises and support each other.
I really don't hope that he plans to meet up with other net girlfriends when I'm not around.
This had been bothered me for a time being.
I know he is always nice to girls.
Wanna meet new 'friends' too.
What I really hope is he keep a clear line with girls and have a limit of treating other people good.
Its not that I not trusting him. But I somehow still will feel insecure.
I love him thats why I become selfish.

Ok... Regarding about other matter that occurred in my life.
Work life-----boring and hectic.
Friendship----Getting more friend ^^

But I'm really really tired.
Wanted to take a long long break from everything.
Planning a gathering next month.
Going to be a big gathering.
Looking forward it..

Gathering date: 20 Nov 2009
Gathering Time: Night (7 p.m.)
Gathering Place: My House~!!

Wanna save money and buy a lot of stuff back to SG.
Boring with my clothes here.
Wanna do a lot of things back in KL.

I really out of topic ler..
Stop here and to be updated soon~

Jiin Jiin

The Happenings

2009-09-23T12:26:00.003+08:00

Here I go for the Happenings for these 2 weeks.

1. Watched G-Force (3D)
Its a nice movie indeed. Cute Guinea Pigs and small animals. Worth to watch especially in 3D.

2. 1st time having dinner at Sushi Tei Restaurant @ Vivo City

3. My Baby CoCo passed away for 1 week.
Poor lil thing passed away last Saturday cause of parasite which damage it's brain. We sent her to the Vet immediately after we found her lying there. Its afternoon. The Vet is out for lunch. We felt somehow sad and nervous. Dear Dear called the emergency number. Dr. Chion seen CoCo and said that the chance for living for CoCo is very very little. Higher possibility to die. My tears flow down to my cheeks, trying hard to not to cry. After CoCo dead, Dear Dear and me brought the other to the vet for check up in case similar parasite attack them. The Vet found that Fei Fei's heartbeat is weird and all of them are thin~ Now all of them except Baby is under medication. Hopefully they will grow stronger.

4. Went for Steamboat Buffet for Dinner.
Ate a lot of food till tummy bloated. Had prawns, a lot of fungi (mushroom, golden mushroom, abalone mushroom and etc), a plate of pork slice (super thin and juicy), 1/4 crab, kangkung, seaweed, meatball and etc.

5. Went to Ben and Jerry for desserts after steamboat.
Had a waffle bowl with 1 scoop of Chocolate Therapy and 1 scoop of ... forgotten the name~ its chocolate with a lot of walnuts, dark choco and white choco. It cost about S$12.50. >.<

6.Work load increased and will be working like siao~
New paralegal cum secretary. Lots of files to be handle. Really tiring.

7. Took care of Izzah's cat and kitten for 4 days.
Worst experience is taking care of the cat's poo poo. Feel nauseous for the whole day and nearly late for work. Luckily Dear Dear wake up and help me settle the problem~ Overall, the cat is obedient. Just that she can't tahan anymore so she pooed in the kitchen basin~

I can't think 0f what happened this 2 weeks ler.. Too much things to handle and to do~
Stop here.

JiinJiin

The Happenings

2009-09-09T12:17:00.002+08:00

Updates on the happenings and me

1. My chin bruised and pain from Monday (7/9/09) till today.

Reason: Played too hard with dear dear till we both fight and choke slam each other. Laugh and cry like crazy.

2. Walking corpse in office.

Reason: Boring , boring and boring! Facing a gigantic weirdo with fear. Office life sucks.

3. Back in AxedMS since Sunday (6/9/09)

Reason:Feel bored and wanted to back in my favorite Private Server.

Feel free to check it out at http://www.axedms.com or http://www.axedms.com/forum

4. Feel restless everyday.

Reason: Missing home. Trying to think a way to make myself useful and beautiful. Too bad that
I'm too lazy. Everyday afterwork look shag. Working hour 8 hours while duration of traveling to and from office takes about 3 hours. In total: 11 hours to work like you are nothing just a puppet. Most of my time gone.

5. Always thinking if I should ask for increment of my salary.
P/s: My salary really is a peanut for everyone.

Reason: Just because that I'm a work permit holder without a Diploma Certificate. Planning to get 1 in Singapore but my money is very difficult to save. Things in Singapore is very costly compared to Malaysia. As reported in news, Singapore is the 2nd most expensive country while the first is Japan.

6. Waiting long for a lawyer to open his own firm and recruit me as his hands and legs.

Reason: He is a good lawyer and might be a good boss as well. The most generous man I ever met in my life. A good uncle for everyone who teaches a lot of things.

7. Pimple grown on my face for almost 1 week. Still reddish.

Reason: Not enough good sleep?? Stress?? And all sort of reasons.

8. Handling tons of files in office while Izzah is going to leave next week.

Reason: Izzah is leaving because she cannot work any longer with such environment and with such people(s) except me.

9. No experienced staff is going to lighten my shoulder.

Reason: No paralegal, no legal staff, no legal secretary and no experienced legal clerk.

10. Dear Dear just knock out 1 of my friend via sms Monday night. (might lose a friend)

Reason: My friend said something to me that he don't like and end up like going to fight via sms.

Anyway, everything is just as 'normal' as it only happened in Singapore.
In Malaysia, I don't think I will be in such stress on working.
Singapore style of working is a lot different from Malaysia.
Same as the attitude. Different people, different attitude.
I wonder am I the same? Attitude?

Wish that I can get a new colleague just like Izzah. Easy to cope with.

Stop for now. Really don't know what to say.
Think my bloggie is going to breed spiders.

Li Jiin

Trying Hard to Cope and 7th Month of Lunar Year

2009-09-01T16:47:00.004+08:00

Its all about work and stuffs that really hard for me to cope.
I really don't know how to manage my life.
Dear dear did make me happy every night after work to help me release my stress.
But sometimes he hurt me a lot.
He likes to bite!!! Left my body, hands and legs with bite marks and even bruised.
Even its painful, but its still fun.

Actually, I want to write happy things here as I mentioned when I create this bloggie.
It end up different.
Now, all I wrote in this blog is actually for people who care about me to see and for understand me more.
However, the person I wanted him to see didn't really pay attention.
Never mind.
Lets us let by gone be by gone.

Office is so quiet recently.
After 5p.m. I will be alone.
Feel really bored and lonely.
Somehow I feel that it is very creepy in the office.
There's sound everywhere.
I even felt that something touched me.
Tomorrow is 14th of July in lunar calendar.
I wonder what will happen but really don't hope that I will be freaked out.
Typing sound from one of the room not occupied.
Tickling at my leg while there is no mosquitoes or insects and even no hair at the bottom of my desk.
I wonder why I'm become scardy cat whenever I'm in love.
I'm tough during my secondary school time.
Once I'm in love, I will become totally weak.
Very easy to seen or hear something that not belong to our volume.
However, I will be trying to be tough again so that no one can hurt me.
Anyway, will update blog whenever I free but not until office hire new staff.
Bored of working here.
Hopefully something good will happen to me.

LiJiin

Pissed off~

2009-08-23T17:37:00.000+08:00

Its been a month since my last post.
A lot of things happened that really pissed me off.
Really don't know what to do and how should I react.
My collegue is going to tender her resignation.
Left me alone facing that weird boss and that wicked OM.
Every weekdays look towards for weekends, but I'm not really enjoying this weekend.
I thought that eventhough my weekdays is a disasters, my weekend will be better and at least can make me feel relieved, relaxed and happy.
Today is Sunday and I'm at home alone while he went out with his secondary so called Gathering wihtout any other people whgo not related.
At first, he told me that this today we will going to K Box and end up his so called good female friend sms him last minute and say that no other people except their class members.
I'm so pissed off.
I've planned which heels and clothings to wear and thought will meet his so called good female friend and thought she will be nice.
However, things went different.
From the feeling of happy and excited turn to disappointed.
Ever since my relationship with Dear Dear start, I don't feel good whenever his so called good female friend call her.
I've even told him last night.
I feel that its a lot more different than his another secondary female friend that he introduced last Saturday.
She is much more friendly.

I feel like wanted to burst out everything but it got stucked in my mind.
I'm going to be crazy soon.
Whenever I feel being dumped alone at home with no one concerning me where I'm actually at a place where I have less friends, I'm always wanted to cry. I know its just maybe for a day or at least few hours, but I still not feeling good about this.
I felt that I'm just a fool.
I feel tired.
Even the weather is playing a fool with me. Raining at the wrong time.
Anyone can really understand me?

Life is just life

2009-07-30T17:25:00.001+08:00

A lot of things happened recently and I have no time to blog it out.
Life is getting miserable as things getting complicated and nuisance.
I really feel fucked up when talk about work.
This place is turning into hell for me.
Even though I have a nice colleague since June 2009 but Pari left followed by Sandeep.
Boss and OM is getting creepy and fishy.
Really can’t imagine what will happen when the office only left us.
These 2 weeks is sick week.
Everyone is sick and things getting sickening.
I’m getting tired working here but I have no other choice.
Ministry of Manpower already rejected a lot of people from other country who are seeking jobs in Singapore.
This means, if I change my job and change my work permit, my work permit might get rejected.
I’m now stuck in between.

How nice if I have a lot of money and no need to work so hard then I can play hard as well.
But too bad that I’m not. I will have to work hard, save more money for further education and so on.
Really can’t spend the money as I like.
If I have the luck to hit Toto or 4D, I will buy a lot of stuff to make myself happy.
Things that every girls like.
Things that everyone desires.
Branded stuffs, jewelry, clothing, a lot of expensive junk food and others.
Everyone hope that they can hit Toto and 4D but I know that if the wealth is not belong to you then it won’t come to you. The more you want to hit the jackpot, the less chance you will get.
I heard this story from OM. She said that there is an old woman strike Toto in her late age.
She has been buying Toto for very long time but when she comes to her age, she can’t enjoy with the big amount of money. However, it benefits her children and grandchildren.
Anyway, Toto is just a luck game and we shouldn’t take it seriously.

Starting from this month, I have to use my money carefully.
Shouldn’t be using too much money if not mummy will kill me.
My BGR thingy consider stable now.
It’s just that sometimes got into small quarrel.
After a while everything will be fine and won’t take too long time to reconcile.
I really hope that he will really take my words in heart.
Sometimes found that he really ignored y words and just dump my words in the rubbish bin like a waste paper.
Really got angry with that but tried to talk nicely to him. Hopefully he takes it seriously.

OMG~
This is the busiest day of mine.
One man show doing everything in office.
OM go home earlier than every time.
She went off at 2 pm. Then I’m the one handling things in office.
Lucky Uncle Sam is still here.
Or else it will be worst.
Manage to do things in time. Thank God.
Tomorrow is another day to go for the week.
Hopefully everything is fine~

Li Jiin

Life

2009-07-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

Recently, things happened not as wished but the only thing that makes me happy was those little babies of my Baby.
I really don't know how to express my feelings anymore.
Its more like not being bothered much.
I'm really tired.
Tired of work and stuffs.
People say I'm selfish but how am I seems to be selfish?
Not to buy drinks or get things for you?
I don't know that I have to buy for you because you never ask me to buy for you.
I just asked what are you having so I can choose what I want.
Ok. I'm selfish.
I'm slow.
My brain can't process well, so I can't get the message you sent me via 'brain waves'.
Fine. I really getting bored with my life now.
I wonder what will happen in future when we can't predict any happenings to be happened.
You learn more than I do.
You gain more than I do.
Your networks are more than I do.
While I'm trying to learn more but I'm still not capable to do so, disappointment come one by one.
I want attention from everyone in my life.
I want them to know my existence.
My heart is crying silently while I have to stretch my skin to let people to see me smiling.
About 1 more year, Dear dear will be in the army.
Hopefully I can see him on the weekends and he will tell me his stories in army.
I really really will miss him damn lots.

JiinJiin

Monday Blues and Big news for Baby

2009-06-29T16:01:00.001+08:00

Monday blue again.
Office Manager not in good mood.
I feel very sleepy.
Izzah feel like not working.
LOL
Last weekend is a nice weekend.
Catch a movies late night on Friday, sleep almost whole day for Saturday and Sunday went to Vivo City again.
Lets start on Friday.
Friday went to Hollandse Club with Mr. Tng during lunch time for Zhi Hao farewell.
Its a nice place to go and its my first time to go.
Ate Dutch food and Vietnam food and drank 2 glass of beer.
Free lunch for the day.
Laughs*
Later then went back to office and wait Office Manager to go off and then office won't be so stress.
Knock off at 6 and went to Harbour Front to fetch Stella, Pari drive.
After that went to Simpang Bedok for dinner.
Free dinner for the day.
We all ate a lot. There were Sotong, Baby sotong, Gong Gong, Lala, Prawns, Kang Kung,Roti John, Kai Lan and Satay.
After the feast by Mr. Edmund along with Pari, Izzah, Stella and Uncle Sam.
Later on after the dinner, Mr. Edmund drive me and Stella to the place we have to go.
Meet up with My Dear at Bugis Junction.
Watched Transformers:Revenge of the Fallen.
A worth watching movies with 2 and a half hour long stories.
A lot of actions and stuff and some cute scene by Bumble Bee and a pair of twins Autobots.
Optimus Prime and Bumble Bee is always awesome.
The movie start at 10.30 p.m. and ends 1 a.m.
We end up going home by cab.
Sleeps at 2 a.m. and end up waking up at 4 p.m. the next day.
Saturday, actually didn't go anywhere.
Went Kovan to bank in my cheque then go to Dear dear's godma house.
Its Kim Wee (Dear's friend) birthday and just a simple feast.
Later on went back about 7.30 p.m.
Watch TV and play with Baby.
Played DOTA till fucked up.
End up stop playing half way.
Watch my TV better.
Then we watch TV till about 12 something to 1a.m.
Sunday, sleep till 1p.m. then wake up play facebook a while then prepare to go out.
Head to Vivo City then walk a while.
After that went to Beard Papa Sweets Stall wanted to buy Cream Puff.
So disappointed because no more chocolate cream puff.
Left Vanilla cream puff which I don't like.
Head home and watch TV show till about 2 a.m.
Lastly, today feel super sleepy.
Tired.. Lazy.. LOL
Own fault because watch TV till so late.
Sigh*

Big news for pets lover.. Now 3.25 p.m.
My Baby gave birth to 5 babies.
LOL
Thank god they are healthy and big.
Hope they will grow up to be healthy like Baby.
Found big tummy 2 - 3 days earlier but not sure whether she is pregnant or not.
Gave birth today.Will get their pics tonight after work!!

JiinJiin

ZZZ

2009-06-24T16:25:00.002+08:00

Last night didn't really sleep well.
Sleep at 12 a.m. but end up waking in the middle of my sleep.
He's unable to sleep and I'm awake.
He's watching anime.
He's listening to songs and suddenly started to sing out loud.
I'm awake because of his singing.
He sing a bit too loud and after that, I can't sleep back.
Now, my eyes pain, jaw and gum pain too because of my wisdom tooth.
My wisdon tooth always grow half way and stop and made me suffer a lot.
My eyes pain cause of lack of sleep.
A bit headache.
Feel dull now.
I think I can't work properly today.
Panda eyes.
Have to check those old files some more.
Sigh*
Bad things happen always.
He failed.
Have to wait and money wasted.
Sigh*
Friday... Weekend...
Faster come...
I'm so bored.
Nearly forgot something.
Baby did something naughty but cute last night.
She pull down the big plastic bag where we keep small plastic bag inside.
She take out those small plastic bag one by one and move them under the cabinet.
One of her silly act is she bite a plastic bag in her mouth and keep on nodding her head.
So cute but you will have to clean her mess later on.
This morning when I go into the kitchen to make coffee for Dear Dear, all the plastic bags is already under the cabinet and she's sitting near the cabinet.
She looked at me like she did something she seems to be nice but I ignored her because I'm not in good mood.
However, she is still the cutest pet of mine.
Of course my Doggie at Malaysia is also cute and active but he is getting old.
Miss my Doggie very much.
I miss all in Malaysia very much.
However, it is getting more dangerous there.
I hereby wish all my family and friends stay safe and healthy.

Jiin Jiin

Monday Blue and Coincidence

2009-06-23T17:09:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, Monday.
Its my collegue Monday Blues.
She got a really bad day yesterday and got scolded early in the morning.
Poor thing.
One of the client miscommunicate and reach office for appointment earlier than his appoinment time.
He got so mad and just went off without saying anything.
She called the client and ask who confirm with him the time and he shouted at her.
He is not coming for the appointment at 11.30 a.m.
Later then Izzah called him and apologise if she say so but she actually didn't tell him that appointment time is 10 a.m.
Later in the afternoon, Office Manager asked Izzah to get money from client to deposit into the client's account.
Izzah followed whatever she says and call the client. She ended up with scolded by client again.
Poor thing.
The client actually don't know where the money used to and he said that we keep on asking money from him.
Izzah tried to explain but the client still can't understand.
That is the same client I handled last time when he wants to know where the money used.
I also tried to explain it with the client's account movement sheet that Office Manager prepared.
She didn't even help me when the client still say that he can't understand the Mathematics prepared by my Office Manager.
Luckily the client didn't get angry because he don't understand.
Pity Izzah scolded by him.
This is not the first client who don't understand Office Manager's mathematics.
Even a client who is an accountant also couldn't understand.
LMAO~!!
We really don't know what our Office Manager is doing.
She accumulate her jobs and asked me to do it for her.
I'm fine with it as I'm free that time.
Things that supposed to be done by her she pushed it to us.

Today, Tuesday.
There are some coincidence.
In the morning, when I step out from Block 157D, I saw a lady's highheels is the same brand and design with me.
Later then, when I step into the LRT, a nurse's bag is the same pattern and colour with me.
The highheels I know where the lady bought. But I wonder where the nurse buy her bag?
It is just because my bag is bought from Malaysia Connaught Pasar Malam with my Dear dear.
Singapore also got?
Laughs.
Later then, went for lunch with Pari and Izzah near CPIB building.
First time finished whole plate of Duck Rice which I can't finish last time.
Maybe too hungry.
Today Dear dear start working at K Box.
At first plan to go home with him at 6 but his schedule changed.
Working from 2 to 8 p.m
Very tired.
Feel like sleeping just now.
Tomorrow will be a busy day.
Gosh~
Hope it will be better than I thought.

JiinJiin

Emporio Armani & Blackout

2009-06-19T12:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I've played Facebook's application for whole day in the office.
It was a boring day as there is nothing much for me to do.
Boss not in for the day and Mrs. Ong went for Malacca trip.
Left us ( Izzah, Pari, Sandeep and Me) in the office.
The office was less tense yesterday compared to the day where Boss and Office Manager in.
Later then, I knocked off earlier than before to rush home.
After I've finish bathing, we (my Dear Dear, his mom and dad + me) went to Orchard to Get back Dear Dear's Emporio Armani watch.
His watch just bought not more than one month sent to Fossil for service.
The mechanism part spoiled and the watch dealer had to one to one exchange another watch for him.
That was the last piece at Orchard area.
Takashimaya also no more stock for that piece of watch because it is limited edition.
Luckily there is another piece for exchange.
If not, something bad will happen.
Dear Dear will be black face for few weeks to few month because the watch cost SGD$689 per piece.
That is the watch that he love most.
Later then Dear Dear went to K Box for interview and he will start working next week.
The bad thing is he will be working for Midnight session from 8p.m. to 4a.m. during Friday or Saturday.
Other than that two days, he will work alternatively in weekdays.
I will be bored and always worried about him till I can't sleep properly or feeling uneasy.
As you know, there are pretty girls there and I just don't like it.
However, it is better for him to work rather than staying at hoe during these school holidays.
After the interview, we went for our dinner at Chinatown.
Ate pig organ porridge and chicken wings.
We reach home about 10 p.m. ++
After that, we watched Magic show online and suddenly, house blackout.
We panic and wonder what happen.
See if there is any electrical stuffs spoiled or not.
Nothing spoiled at that moment.
When the electric is back, I found that Baby is not in the Kitchen.
I wonder if Baby is somewhere else.
Normally when I call Baby, she will appear or make any sound to let you know where she is.
But this time, she didn't.
I searched for her and found the she is the cause of the blackout.
She bite the wire till the copper exposed.
She look scared at the moment.
Luckily nothing happened to her.
Never die of shocking.
Dear Dear's mom scolded her and she looked annoyed.

JiinJiiin

My wednesday~ Sucks

2009-06-17T16:19:00.001+08:00

Early in the morning pissed off by a lousy pink car middle age driver.
I felt so lame and weird at that time plus I'm in a bad mood.
Early in the morning let me see such stupid thing.
When we using the zebra crossing, cars should have stop for pedestrain to cross then only can proceed to go.
What's the fucking problem with him suddenly honked me and look back after I cross and give me that fucking face?
I'm so tired and having a headache at that moment.
Middle age man drive pink car.. Lame...

This morning really tired.
Headache...
Feel extremely sleepy today.
Hav a nap in train and bus but no use...
I still can't stay awake and fresh...
Even when I read the Family law also wanted to sleep.

The time now is 12.03 p.m.
Boss and Izzah just back from Inmate Interview at the prison.
Now I really don't know what to do.
When I read, I can't concentrate at all.
Keep on dozing off..
2 more days to weekend.
Everyone can't wait for the day to come.
As for me, I hope that everyday is my holidays.
However, that won't happen.

The time now is 2.25 p.m.
Sleepy and yet boring.
Have nothing to do at the moment.
Phone card expired.
This month really boring.
Hopefully, boss went back early today so that our office environment won't be so tense.
I'm wondering what I can do in office now except from those lousy things.
Can I get more information about what's happening in the world?
Especially what's happening in Malaysia.

The time now is 3.20 p.m.
Read Berita Harian Online about the news in Malaysia and stuff.
Still, very brored.
No one talk to me.
As always, appearing offline so no body will chat with me and solve my boredom.
Only Dear dear know but he seldom chat with me because... He is doing his project thing.
He's now taking order of Famous Amos Cookies for sales for his Entreprenuership Project.
Cheaper than retail price due to promotions for students doing their projects.

The time now is 14.14 p.m.
Just sent out an email to client.
Found a mistake.
Sigh*
So unprofessional.
Anyway, I'm waiting for the time to go home.
Miss him a lot..
LOL...

JiinJiin

Speechless

2009-06-16T16:51:00.000+08:00

First of all, Father's day is on coming Sunday.
So, I still haven't miss a chance to call my dad and wish him Happy Father's day.
But I think it would be better if I just sms him..
Because... I'm that kind of people who unable to express myself in front of my parents.
I afraid I will cry again just listening to dad just like last time when I have to back to Singapore and dad called me and say a lot of things to me and made me cried.

Found something last night but unable to verify it.
However, I guess I already know what was that.
Just that I didn't get a proper answer about that thing. Denied.
I'm still feeling uncomfortable about it until now.
Feel unsecure at all but try to ignore.
I didn't get good sleep last night and cause me so sleepy today.
I feel so tired. Nothing to do again and feel really boring.
Unlike to Izzah, she is always busy because she is handling everything Stella handle last time.
Am I consider lucky? Or useless in office?
Sigh*
Life...
Speechless...
I'm so blank now....

JiinJiin

The Happenings

2009-06-15T15:17:00.001+08:00

Monday again and have go get back to work.
This week's appointment not as full last last week or last month.
Pari is on leave for a trip to Malaysia for few days and will be back on Thursday.
Mrs. Ong will be on leave on Thusrday onwards and back to office next monday.
As for Boss, he is currently planning for a trip as well since there is not much appointment and no new client.
As for me, nothing much for this week.

Lets talk about last Saturday and Sunday.
Saturday, as usual woke up in the afternoon and then get prepared to go out.
Go for lunch and then bring the 2 bunnies to Compasspoint for Weijie.
Later then we went for K Box. Together with his parents.
I feel a bit weird actually but I cant say anything about it since his parents paying for it.
The four of us cost about S$90++.
Its expensive. If we were in KL, it would be half of it.
Then we went to Vivo City to buy his dad Father's day present.
I'm such a bad girl because I didn't buy one for my dad or even wish him Happy Fathers day.
I'm actually afraid of calling my dad.
Well, I'm that kind of people who won't express myself out.
I felt so sorry. I better keep more money so that I can bring back cash for them.
They will be more happy because, they LOVE CASH!!
Haha.. Later then, I bought a pair of high heels.
The one I'm wearing is loosen. So bought one cost me S$42.
Later then we had our dinner at Food Republic.
A lot of people there and we hardly get a seat.
After dinner, we headed home and followed by our routine.
Sunday, as usual woke up in the afternoon.
Played Facebook a while then play with Baby.
My naughty Baby always bite me but not her Daddy.
However, she still know that I'm angry at her and started to be nice.
After a while, back to normal.
Bought carrot for Baby as a treat and bought coke for him as a treat.
Both of them really alike to each other as he likes to bite me so does Baby.
Lame... Both had bad temper.
Staying at home till 6 something then head to Kovan to withdraw Money.
After that, we went to Rivervale Mall and bought a Kebab and Takoyaki as snacks.
Reach home and wait for dinner.
Watched TV and DOTA and then slept.

Back to today, school holidays started and he went out for his Tourism project at Chinatown and according to him, he have driving lesson tonight.
So when I reach home, maybe won't see him until his lesson over.
Feel so bored and sleepy. Sien...

JiinJiin

Office and Baby's Stuff

2009-06-12T13:54:00.002+08:00

It has been so long from my last update till now.
A lot of thinigs happened recently.
However, I couln't remember everything happened.
Things that I could remember is that a new staff join the firm as my boss's secretary.
Her name?
Izzah~ Malaysian and from Sarawak.
She a malay and she can cope with me fast and have no problem in communication between us.
Its good to have someone you really can talk to in the office.
Office Manager pushing her jobs to us.
I wonder what she did during the office hour if her job being pushed away to us?
Things getting worst and difficult to cope in office.
When boss and office mananger are in the office, the office environment really tense.
All of us can feel the tense even the clients and our allies came to the office can also feel it.
I really feel bored in the office.
Clients are getting lesser and my task not that much compared to last few months.
All I can do is read and go through the files that I interested in.
Besides, I feel that its getting bored when all the day on facebook and doing nothing.

Going to give out my 2 bunnies.
So will only left my Baby alone.
However, she enjoy loneliness very much.
She's the weird one.
Have you ever seen a bunny act just like a puppy?
Baby is the one bunny that I've seen act just like a puppy.
Baby start to act like puppy recently. Reason??
Its just because last week after the my 2 bunnies mate and gave birth to 5 babies (2 dead, 3 alive), we have no choice to keep Baby in the kitchen.
However, after 3 days, the other 3 baby bunnies dead as well because of their stupid mummy bunny don't know how to feed them and always step on them.
One of the 3 bunnies blind because it's eyes open too early and cause infections. Another one baby's leg broken (both) stepped by the stupid mummy bunny.
And at last the healthiest bunny couldn't survive because no warmth given to it. We even feed them manually and at first, there's a hope to see them grow but unfortunately, all of them can't survive.
Not to let that 2 bunnies mate and give birth again, we decide to separate them and mummy bunny occupied Baby's cage.
So, Baby stay where she is when that stupid mummy gave birth to those babies.
Back to Baby act like a puppy topic.
Puppies like to follow wherever you go to catch your attention.
So do Baby. She will follow where you go when you are with her in the kitchen. She will run to your leg and even bite your leg lightly.
When you call here she will acknowledge by rush to you or look at you.
However, when she's in a bad mood, she will ignore you.
She always surprise people with sudden jump out from somewhere she hide and startled you.
She's so cute but naughty.

I think thats all for my stories for this moment. Maybe update next time when I feel I want to.

JiinJiin

Nth to do~

2009-05-28T17:01:00.001+08:00

It has been so long since the last time I update my blog.
Tomorrow is Stella last day.
Sigh*
Life really boring.
I only feel happy when I'm at home.
Staying at home watching drama or movie and so on.
Work is like hell of boredom.
I don't know what I can do.
These two days even play poker and I'm not supposed to play it during office hour.
However, its freaking bored.
AND MOST IMPORTANT THING IS IM SPEECHLESS~

JiinJiin

Monday and Tuesday

2009-05-19T17:33:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, Monday.
Thought that it would be a bad day.
However, it ended up better than I thought.
There's a bad news as well.
Stella had resigned and her last day will be 9 of June 2009.
Too bad that I just get to know her and she's leaving.
Without her in the office, I think it would be a hard time.
Really don't know what to say.
There's really a lot of things happened.
Too many things till everyone stressed.
Less a person to teach me things.
More things for me to do soon.
Sigh**
Speechless...
Going back to KL for a wedding dinner and Gathering with those guys and girls.
Haha..
Don't know what will happen and does it go well.
Hopefully Peter go along.
He's like losing friends if he don't get to see those guys.
Nothing to say much~

Buzzing off..

Jiin Jiin

Damn Thing~

2009-05-14T15:50:00.001+08:00

10.35a.m.
This few days, a lot of things happened.
Keep on get scolded... Complain from clients and etc...
Feel bored about working and just hate it as much as I hate that bastard.
However, I already don't remember how does that bastard look like.

I wanna rest for longer. Wanna have a long holiday.
My superior, she's on MC for about 3 weeks.
Good for her to rest after her surgery(not really resting cause we still disturbing her).
Next Monday confirm will get scolded by boss or her.

Sigh**
My working life so miserable now.
Worst than every job I worked before with less fun more stress.
However, I learnt more than any other job.
The other bad thing is, I feel like I'm like a robot or puppet and boss/superior is the person who operate a robot or a puppeteer.
Feel really really bad.
Working is not just for living and learning, but for everything.

Why people hate their jobs?
Why people hate weekdays?
Its just because of boss not good? Working environment bad?
Or simply because of misunderstood between colluegues?
I don't really hate my job but just simply dislike my job.
I just hate working and I would like to be a housewife in the future.
People might think that what's so good being a housewife?
Housewife have to do chores at home, cook, take care of child, do shopping for home, take care of husband's need and some even have to please parents-in-law.
The only thing that a housewife benefits is free from office politic wars.
Less stress compare to multi-task household stuffs and at least, a housewife don't have a deadline to get things done except she, herself set a timing for herself to get things done so that things won't crash together and make a fuss at home.
When am I going to free from working life? Most of my friends taught that it would be fast but I don't think so.
As so many things have to be done before a marriage, and due to the economy crisis.
Its not easy for one person to support the family.
So, I think my dream of being a housewife will be hard to achieve.

12.00 p.m.
I'm really tired of working here.
Ok... Everything is my fault..
I take it.. All of it..
I really don't hope to work in such sucks environment.
I've just started to get along well with Stella and I'm actually happy about it.
But now, there are still someone who pissed me off and I pissed her off.
Called me just to scold me. What I can do is just shut my mouth and listen.
I already learnt my mistake and I will make sure I won't do it AGAIN.
You taught I won't feel bad if I did anything wrong?
I do feel bad when things that bad happened.
I do feel bad if the person get scolded even not because of my fault.
I then knew that bad things will happen on coming Monday.
Boss will scold her and me and she will scold me.
If she really loose the job then what should I do?
What am I thinking that why office rules and style change is maybe because of me.
Stella said it was not like now previous year even when she started work here.
Afterall I really feel that I'm not supposed to be here.
I'm just an outsider in Singapore.
Except Dear dear's home, no other place makes me feel I'm part of here.
Part of here as a Work Permit holder.

2.00p.m.
Bad things always comes after my good things and even eat up my good things.
I just hate that.
IT MAKES ME SICK WHEN I'M DEPRESSED!!!
I will be always pain whenever I got stressed and depressed and whenever I feel nervous.
And all of these pain start at the time I started my job here at this bloody place.
I really wanted to work in a happier environment.
With at least colluegues treat me well.
Just like Siew Ping who listen to me always when I'm in 88db.com.
Just like Issa and others who help me with sales when I'm working as Panasonic Promoter at Bintang Maju, Plaza Low Yat.
Just like Jane and Kit Mun accompanying me while facing customers when I'm working in Erican Language Centre.
Just like my gor, Alan, Alice and Ah Seng accompany and guide me when I'm working in JT Sales and Services.
Just like Bob and Chee Teng accompany and teach me skills when I'm working in Kenny Roger Roasters.
I'm really happy since 15 years old when I firstly got my 1st job at Kenny Roger Roasters.
Till then, this is the worst.
Maybe because I already grow up and everything getting serious in life.
Now then I understand why people don't wish to grow up and stay as a child.
It is simply happy when you are a child and you get your head off from those fuck up adult life.
I really feel bad.
I really wanted to have a true friend at my current work place who can teach me and guide me.
I really trying my best.
Its just that people will do things wrongly without good guidance.
Its just like a new born baby who need guides to learn how to speak and walk.
Its just as simple as that but people will make it difficult.
Really fuck up with things happened and to be happening soon.
I really hope that I can go back to secondary school time when everyone having fun.
I really missed those days when I didn't feel fustrated like now.
I really need to shout and have a big cry.
I'm not as tough as my friend thought.
I'm weak. I'm just acting like I'm ok with everything but in fact I'm not always ok.
I'm really tired.

JiinJiin

Boredom=No life

2009-05-08T16:04:00.001+08:00

Boredom...
Recently really bored..

In Office...=.=
With immediate effect, we are not allowed to SURF THE INTERNET and MSN..
What the Fudge~
In a small office like this...
OMG~
Its like a lot of things happened to Boss.
Boss is just like don't know how, and then simply scold people, catch people's small mistakes and stuffs.
This whole week, Stella is the most pity one.
Followed by office manager.
I was so shocked when Stella told me things that boss say.
I can't imagine a big lawyer will say such words.
Stella told me what happened last time when boss told everyone in a party that my office manager is his "watch dog".
I really can't imagine what he said.
Stella told me at that time, everyone in the office was stunned by what he said.
It was like so... Rude..
Try to imagine, how should a lawyer behave?
They will have to take care of their reputation and not to do shame things in front of the crowd.
However, our boss is different.
He don't care what people feel when he say those rude words.
Its rude enough to make people feel bad.
Its too much for a ladies to accept that.
I wonder how my office manager can carry on her job with such boss.
Furthermore for so many years.
Stella told me that she's already at her limit.
I'm wondering, how long do I stay here?
2 years? Or more?

Now all seniors went home.
I'm at last free....

JiinJiin

Rainy and Cloudy Wednesday

2009-05-06T11:00:00.001+08:00

Wednesday.
Feel like long time never update blog.
Feel really tired and can't get good sleep everytime.
Raining heavily during midnight and thunder make me awake from my sleep.
I feel very tired now.
Wanna have a nap or sleep.
If I'm rich and no need to work, I won't be so tired.
At least I can sleep whenever I want and when I feel tired.
Nothing much to do online recently.
Getting bored of my days.

However, something new at home.
A grey colour female Poodle.
Where she shit and peed on our bed yesterday.
Dear dear changed the bedsheet before I came home.
The Poodle is quite obedient but a bit too sticky.
However, I'm not the one she sticks to.
She sticks to Dear dear's mom.
But whenever Dear dear's mom not in, she will stick with me or Dear dear.
Yesterday when I reach home, she followed me wherever I went.
Even when I'm bathing, she just sit near the door and waited me to come out.
It's such a cute lil puppy.
Update picture when available~

My body feel stiff now.
Hands and fingers turned cold.Arms feel stiff and a bit pain.
Eye lid dropping every 10 to 30 second.
Eyesight also blurred.
Sigh*
I don't wanna work.
I wanna sleep now.
Really going to doze off.
Mrs. Ong on MC today.
Hopefully Boss don't come back so early.
Then I can slack a bit.
When he back already then have to stay focus.
If not when he catch then hell no... Bad Luck comes.
Just say not long ago then boss come back already.
Sigh*
So sleepy but have to stay awake.
Sad. Suffering nya~

JiinJiin

The earth is sick

2009-04-28T13:03:00.004+08:00

Read the newspaper today.

2009 Swine flu outbreak.

Swine flu firstly detected in Mexico and then in Texas and California.

Here's some information about the symptoms of swine flu.
It is similar to those of other strains of human flu, including fever, cough, sore throat, body aches, headache, chills and fatigue.
A few people have reported that they also suffered from diarrhea and vomiting.

As for prevention, basically Standard Personal Precautions which includes frequent washing of hands with soap and water or with alcohol-based hand sanitizers, especially after being out in-public.
People should avoid touching their mouth, nose or eyes with their hands unless they've washed their hands. If people do cough, they should either cough into a tissue and throw it in the garbage immediately, cough into their elbow, or, if they cough in their hand, they should wash their hands immediately.

There's a lot of things happening to our earth.
Now, Swine Flu.
Then Tsunami might occurred in the month of July.

Who can really save the world?

Or Are we destroying the earth soon as well as the nature?
We, living beings are just like virus/germs to the earth.
We dig, produce waste, and many others activity and cause Global Warming.

Hope those organization can held some activities to save the world.
We can't prevent nature disasters to happen but we can prevent sicknesses, viruses and others damage cause by humans to the earth.

JiinJiin

Monday again 2

2009-04-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

Its Monday again.
I blog almost every Monday as I lazy to blog during weekend.
Last Friday night, Dear dear brought me for movie with his ITE friends.
We watched Friday the 13th for the second time.
The first time watched at home fro the internet.
We didn't know that it was the one we watched and we wasted money to watch it again.
Dear Dear got bored to watch again for almost 2 hours.

This week is a short working week.
Lucky for me because I only have to work for 4 days since I hate work so much.
Really hate working.
However, I have no choice.
I think I will have to work for a couples of years then only I can escape from working.

I'm going to be 20 years old soon.
I hope that I could stay young. The age of 18 or 19 would be the best.
Kinda bored in the office.
I hope Manager not here.
Then I won't be so stress and I get to do what I want.
At least I can listen to songs.
Its really quiet in the office until you can hear the water drips.
Nothing to do. Just sit at there typing, facebook-ing and blogging.
Trying to search for interesting case to read but most of them not interesting.
Don't know what to say again.

Missed the chance to web cam with mummy.
Coz I was outside and when my brother or me free, mummy already sleep.
Sigh**

Hope nice thing falls to me~!!

JiinJiin

The Happenings

2009-04-23T16:48:00.001+08:00

Its Thursday today, and tomorrow will be Friday.
Weekends arriving soon.
Tired of working.
Wanna have a good rest.
My boss went for trip as I mentioned before.
It would be nice when there is no boss or manager around.
However, things end up different than I thought.
My Office Manager will stay till 6 p.m. instead of going off at 4 p.m.
Me and one of my collegue feel so disapointed then we get to know she will be staying back to monitor us.
Feel so bad because I can't get to do the things that I do when my Office Manager not in.
Even Stella feel akward when the time of she going off extended.
Stella on MC today and the office is extremely quiet.
This makes me bored.
I dozed off a bit during morning because recently can't get to sleep well.
Luckily, no one catch me.
Because I doesn't look like I'm sleeping.
Haha ^^
This 2 days going thru the Affidavit about Divorce and Summons for Maintenance.
Its the most interesting Affidavit of all among those Divorce cases.
I won't blog what's the content of it because it is Private and Confidential.
All I can say is it is ridiculous and weird for the Defendant to wirte out all the incidents that is not necessary.
I doesn't know what actually happened between the Plaintiff and the Defendant until things to be like that.
I've found a phrase from the Plaintiff which I feel that it is meaningful.

"Family is like a Ribbon."
"Left loop resembles the Wife and right loop resembles the Child."
"The knot in between is the Husband who support both wife and child."

Man is the main support to a family.
However, a lot of conflict happen between family members.
Each of the family member have to give in and tolerate to create harmony and happy family.

I've always wanted a family like this.
However, we can't predict our future.

JiinJiin

Random

2009-04-21T15:42:00.003+08:00

Feel like so long never blogging already.
Following my sister's blog to know what happened to her.
She suddenly sms me one night and say she very sad.
Sigh**
I really don't know what on earth is happening.
Too many things happened.
I'm feel bored of working now.
Tired of it.
Getting sleepy nowadays.
Don't know why I can't sleep well at night.
I wonder what problem that I'm facing.
Get headaches easily as well.
No more medicine for my abdominal pain.
Haven't go buy. Pain while eating and after eating.
Sigh***
Boss went for his trip to Shanghai already.
Office feel so peaceful.
Even my heart feel a bit peaceful because I'm stress when Boss in the office.
Now we can do whatever we want.
Haha.. A bit relieve actually.

JiinJiin

Happenings & Fur Kids

2009-04-16T15:11:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, Dear dear bought 2 more fur kids back.
1 Boy and 1 Girl.
Now, I have 3 naughty fur kids at home.
Not only running around, but messing around.
My Baby doesn't welcome those 2 fur kids.
She was irritated and end up biting things and people.
My middle finger was bitten by her at that day.
She was so annoyed till she gets angry to anyone who went near her.
Until now, she still get irritated and always give us nossy face.
The face that when you see, you will feel like punching her and get irritated.
Sigh*
Thought that she will be more happy if there's other fur kids accompany her when me and dear dear not home.
It ends up feeling bad.
Now those 2 fur kids staying together in a bigger cage and Baby staying alone.
Those 2 fur kids is as naughty as Baby. But they currently don't bite people.
They just mess up in the cage and make everything upside down.
More things to do then.
Let me introduce them some other time as I haven't have that mood to take pictures for them.
Haven't name them because don't know what to name.
The boy extremely active till he went to fuck the girl (might be his sister).
So naughty.
Dear dear said that when he brought back those 2 fur kids and placed them into the cage with Baby, Baby fight with them and biten them.
She doesn't welcome them and end up fighting with them.
Baby really a big bully. She even bullied me.
Sigh**
So sad. Even an animal that I raise up doesn't listen to me.
How should I expect a person to listen to what I said and what I want?
Dear dear started his school back and his holidays' over.
He slept early with me recently.
It feels nice because I won't get irritated at night when I can't sleep because of him.
Gonna end here.

To be continue soon.

JiinJiin

Recent Days

2009-04-14T16:29:00.000+08:00

Lately, I didn't update much in my bloggie.
I went to kill my time using Facebook.
During working hours only can go Facebook to click click here and there.
Playing Mafia Wars, Vampire Wars and etc.
Sigh*
Recenlty....
Really don't know how to describe my feelings and stuffs.
Always messed up with everything.
End up unhappy.
Tired of everything.
Hope things will get better soon.

Its already April now.
One month and 6 day will be our 1st aniversary.
Time flies and now a lot of things happened.
Miss those time but now also not really bad.
At least I'm still happy with something.
Don't know what to blog, so stop here and continue when I had some interesting stories.

JiinJiin

Japanese paper steamboat and Happenings

2009-04-07T21:18:00.007+08:00

Yesterday played too much with my playful dear dear till my left arm got swollen a bit an become black because of his bite.
Here's a picture of my arm.

Pain till now. Sobx~

Anyway~
I would like to recommend a Japanese food to my bloggie readers.
Everyone should have eaten steamboat no matter what type of steamboat it is.
Here is it~
Japanese Paper Steamboat.

For your informations, its burning underneath a metal basket and directly to the paper.
The metal basket just to support the paper so that it shaped like a bowl.
It has various type of selection whether you want it hot and spicy or miso soup or even normal clear soup.
Don't underestimate the clear soup. It taste great.
The ingredients is whether seafood, chicken, beef or vegetable.
Try it yourself at Plaza Singapura's Kopitiam.

Today, Dear dear didn't sleep during midnight and morning.
He end up sleeping while I'm gone for work.
When he wake up this afternoon around 3 p.m. , he went to brush his teeth and clear his computer table.
He didn't answer me for almost 3 hours.
When he answered me, he said that he end up cleaning whole house.
This is the picture I took in our room.
See how tidy it is after he tidy up everything.

Feel so comfortable now.
He said he want I finish work already come home and have a nice environment.
Then I can rest in more comfortable way.
I very miss him now.
He is outside. Gathering with his primary school friends.
Hope he will be back home soon.

Loves, JiinJiin

Monday again

2009-04-06T16:12:00.000+08:00

Recently, start to join Facebook since my dear dear playing as well.
Found many of my secondary friends there.
Happen to add them but dear dear say i add more friends than him and he will add more people too..
Zzz..
This week will only work for four days and Firday is public holiday.
Good Friday, a holiday that Malaysia don't take as public holidays.
However, its going to have 3 days to have fun.

This weekedn didn't go anywhere. Just staying at home.
However, I was happy because I could watch anime and movie in his arms.
Its kind of bored when I'm playing facebook's application alone and he played his dota.
I prefered that we do things together rather than alone. Its more fun.

This week he will have 2 outing at night time..
1 on Tuesday night with his Primary school friends and 1 on Saturday night with his " Brothers".
I will be alone at home for few hours then.
Today in office super clumsy.
Keep on hurting my hands, fingers and legs.
Lucky didn't whack my own head.
Haha..
Touch wood!!

Very Bored.
Now my things done but more things to come soon.
I will be as busy as Sella soon.
Sigh...

Wanna go home faster!!
Start to headache ady.
Haiz...

Hope things get well.

JiinJiin

Fustrated

2009-04-02T16:32:00.003+08:00

Recently have not much appetite during the afternoon.
Yesterday dear dear came and fetch me back from work.
I release a bit earlier.
He was angry a bit because the reason of accompanying me home is a man was like always following me the way I went back home for at least 2 months plus but I end up release early and he have no chance to see who is that person who make me feel annoyed for seeing him everywhere when I'm on my way home.

*Sigh...
I was always said to be an idiot by dear dear.
Feel bad when he says so.
I was not really that idiot but in his presence I really look idiot.

We went to the pasar malam at Rivervale Plaza and we bought some food.
1. Takoyaki
2. Shark Fin Soup
3. BBQ Chicken Wing
4. Fried Chicken Drumstick

Yummy

Reach home then we eat and then clean Baby's cage.
I was so tired then.

At night time, I can't watch Blood+ because he want to play Dota.
I waited till fall asleep and end up sleeping.
After he finish Dota, he do something I don't like him to do.
Sigh....
He always sleep late recently. Normally at around 2 a.m.
He contacted his primary friends for outing and might fall on Sunday.
Sigh again...
One of my Sunday with him might fly away.
He chatted wit a lot of people recently.
I was a bit jealous.
And I'm really feel kind of lonely very often.
While working, I have to appear offline.
When I talk to him in msn during my working hour he never reply.
Busy gaming.

I felt that its somehow our routine getting boring because we have things that we wanted to do but not together.
I wanted to stay close to him.
Stick to him. However, I know its impossible to stick like that with him.
One day he will go for army and I will be sleeping alone for two years.
I really don't want to feel separated with him.
I feel like crying when blogging out all this inner voice.
Who could really understand?

Maybe someone who read my blog will think that I'm thinking too much or I'm not letting a man breathe in his own air.
Men needs freedoms and friends.
Women can give up anything just because loving a man.

Feeling dull...
Trying to get what I want.
Can't get what I want.
Not really what I want.

Then What I want??

JiinJiin

April Fool

2009-04-01T16:28:00.002+08:00

Waseh~

April fool nya~
However, its not like previous April Fool.
During Secondary school and college time, I've always fooled my friends out.
It's a wonderful day fooling around and trick other friends.
Having fun joking around and even play people till laugh like duh...
Now?
Haha... I think all of us grown up to be an adult and getting busy.
Its sort of everyone is forgetting that today is April Fool.

Working life is such a boredom and it feel lifeless.
Everyday the same thing.
Really dunno what to do now.

JiinJiin

Bloody Blacky

2009-03-31T17:30:00.000+08:00

Wow...
I finally found what makes me stress a lot since last 3 months.
It was her.
She is the culprit who make me ill.
Scold because of small matter.
Make me feel uptight.
Feeling not comfortable working in such situation.
Scold me even its not disturbed her and non of her business?
Walao...
Even you are up ahead me but I still have feelings.
Small matter you bring up like big matter.
WTF~
I'm trying to do my best.
Trying to do things confidentally.
You make me lost my confidence.
Yea...
You say its for me to learn.
Hell yes..I'm learning but stressing out because of you.
Since last 3 months then I only started to have chronic abdominal pain.
Why is it before that I don't have this illness?
Its because of YOU~!!!
YMF!!! B*tch~
I've never happy working in that way.

JiinJiin

Bothersome

2009-03-30T12:25:00.000+08:00

Going to hospital for scanning today.
Didn't really sleep well last night.
Sigh...
I feel bothered..
You said that I think too much..
But its really bother me a lot.
I just don't like it.
It makes me feel like.....you are something.
Something to be done mentally not physically.
I've told you before that I don't want you to do so.
And you actually promised me.
Now after a while, you did it back again with your collections.
I was like 'zzz'...
Ok...You will say I'm thinking too much..
But its just for me to express out if not I'm going to berserk.
I want you to know.
Know my feelings.
I know you have your own feelings too.
You have things that you wanted to do.
I'm too bad..
Too bad...
Arghhh...

However, I do feel happy sometimes when you are acting cute, innocent and stuffs.
Its so sweet of you sometimes.....
I love you and yes I care.

JiinJiin

Human-face Fish??

2009-03-27T15:56:00.004+08:00

I've found something creepy but special.
I was searching for Artistic Bread pictures and found something like this

"The 'humanoid' carp are attracting attention in the town of Chongju in the center of the country where they live in a small pond.

They are believed to be hybrid descendants of two carp species – the carp and the leather carp, also known as a tangerine fish.

Both fish are females and more than three feet long. They appear to have distinctive human noses, eyes and lips.

The fish live in a pond behind the home of a 64-year old South Korean man and have been there since 1986 although their looks are only just starting to attract attention.

"My fish have been getting more and more human for the past couple of years," the owner said.

He added that he knows of other fish with similar features, and as they are both females it will be impossible for them to breed and have fish-faced offspring."

Kinda weird huh? Found something like this.

The world is unique yet mysterious.

We wouldn't know if the dinosaurs really exist before.

However, we live to know the unique of the world.

http://dsc.discovery.com/earth/slideshows/10-extinct-beasts/top-10-extinct-beasts.html

Try the above link for extinct animals in earlier age.

JiinJiin

☠Deadly Sick☠

2009-03-26T13:35:00.002+08:00

I'm deadly sick right now.
Long time didn't update my bloggie.
Feel tired and lazy plus my sickness.
There's a lot of things happened recently.
I went back to KL, sick for almost 2 weeks?
Wasai...Till now different sickness occured my body.
Tired of sickening.

Now, I have blocked but running nose, sore and itchy throat and a heavy and spinning head.
So pity.
Last night can't even sleep well due to irriatated eye.
Feel like something inside and formed a thin layer of whitish.
Luckily, its ok now but still a bit swollen.
I wonder why my body so weak.
Always sick and feel tired.
Is it my immune system broke down?

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Hope I get well soon.

JiinJiin

Back to work..

2009-03-17T17:45:00.001+08:00

Tuesday...
Back to work...
Yesterday on MC because of a chronic pain at the left side of my waist.
I went to see doctor at night and found out it was Irritable Bowel Sydrome.

Haiz...
Its uncurable...
I have made a research in the website and found out the cause and treatment.
This syndrome is mainly caused by stress, irregular meal and foods consuming.
The doctor said, it won't be cured but it will slowly get used to the situation and environment.
My sister now having alot of problem in her relationship and her studies.
Hope she can cope herself with her studies first then relationship.
I tried to help out but its depends..
And I don't want to be so ke po liao...

Sien..
Had a nightmare this morning..
Around 4:30 a.m.
End up sreaming and crying as I woke up.
A dream that I doesn't hope to had.

Waiting to play AxedMS...
Paypal really....Haiz..
I even go and apply for a debit card but still can't verify my account.
Sien lar..

JiinJiin

Friday the 13th

2009-03-13T15:58:00.000+08:00

This few days raining heavily.
Suits my feelings very well.

Questions to myself.
1. Am I deceiving myself?
2. How long can i bare and tolerate?
3. Do I think too much?
4. Is it worth?
5. Am I happy enough?
6. Am I really useless?

Answer to myself.
1. Maybe.
2. Not sure but trying my best.
3. Yes and I'm just worried.
4. Maybe. (I still can't see what's infront of me.)
5. Sometimes.
6. I don't think I'm useless. I just want to have someone that I can depends to.

Well... What am I doing now?
Writting blog, mapling in Axedms, working, eating, sleeping.

Someone said life's sucks.
Yea indeed.
However, I still see beautiful things and funny things around me.
Trying to be happy.

Friday the 13th again.
The second one in this year.
My first Friday the 13th is bad.
However, today it wouldn't be bad.
Because yesterday already fed for today and hopefully today will be better.

Stella show me a blog and there's a title "Rapist who rape a 4 mth old baby beheaded and castrated by local gangster"
Those pictures are really gross. But that guy deserved it!!!

JiinJiin

My Day

2009-03-12T17:19:00.001+08:00

This few days so busy.
Busy and tired.
Getting so tired.
Working makes me feel like hell.
I hope in future I no need to work anymore..
Only do house chores and baby sitting.

LOL

Today is as busy as yesterday.
No time to slack..

As for yesterday, I saw a lesbian couple kissing and cuddling at the LRT platform like no one else in the world.
Feel kind of disgusting.
Both of them wearing school uniform (shirt and skirt).
One of them cut boys hair, very thin but dark skin.
The other one feel like a bit gigantic, shoulder length hair looks a bit man.
Weird to see...

And as for today, have to translate English/cantonese for clients.
The man is so stubborn. He couldn't understand words and live in his own opinion.

Today Dear Dear start working for the IT Fair and will be home late.
He said 9 p.m.
I forgotten to ask him why.
Sad. I miss him.
LOL
Hmm...
Sien, I don't know what to do anymore.

JiinJiin

Nice Picture and My days

2009-03-09T12:40:00.002+08:00

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Thats the picture I would like to share.

Other than that, my day is like getting worse.
Why?
I was like going to burst or something.
Maybe the passer-by was right.
But I still don't hope what he/she said was the right thing.
Arghhh...
I wanna have a good rest.
Wanna get a long sleep and don't wake up.
Perhaps, I'm just running away.
What should I do?
Trying so hard.
End up hurting myself?
In my age, I should bare it so that in future I gain what I want.
But if worst come to worst, its fate then.
*Sigh...
Life's precious things is love, time, and happiness.
Did I own them?

JiinJiin

Sad, annoyed, fustrated, angry, disappointed

2009-03-06T15:57:00.003+08:00

This few days, I didn't blog much.
I feel so mixed up.
So many things happened.
Even cried for few times.
Get scolded for nothing.
Not being trusted by him.

I'm tired......
Really tired.
I wanted to have a good rest.
I wanted to have some peaceful days.
*Sigh

My dark circles so dark and made me look like a Panda.
My eyes swollen.
My face look pale.
I'm not feeling good.

As for AxedMS...
I'm still addicted.
I'm a GM right now and I've found that its not easy.
Because....
Too many people will bug you when you are a GM~
LOLS~~

But still AXEDMS ROCKS~~

JiinJiin

AxedMS~!!

2009-03-03T17:13:00.001+08:00

Hehe...
Feel like been tricked..
AxedMS not given out.
Later when I reach home then can play ler..

Addicted To AxedMS

JiinJiin

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