Sunday, January 11, 2009
♥ Life of Mine
I've found that for me to be a girl, I'm just too normal.
Its nothing to do with me if its me or anyone else since I have no power to control things myself.
To be the person I wanted to be but failed.
I'm totally lost. For the character being now is too weak.
I wanted to get back my pride, my character and myself.
Maybe I should have start to change.
Living in my own opinion is not a good choice, but still I have to live with moderations.
Its been 1 week since I started to cook breakfast for Dear Dear.
Somehow I feel satisfy but I don't want to be the little woman of a husband.
Maybe I should start with my attitude?
Or I can start with my knowledge? Of course getting more knowledge is 1 of my interest.
My personality should have change the first and I must be more independent so that I wont get bullied.
INDEPENDENT!!
This is the thing that is difficult for me to get rid of.
Whenever I with my boyfriend, I become too relay to him.
Should have change this the first.
Somehow, I feel bad when I can't get with dear dear always.
Now, I have boyfriend (a future-husband-to-be), job and family (but they are far from me).
Somehow, I feel myself like to control things too much..
Plan most of the things recently to lead myself to a better environment.
To be or not to be~
Life is miserable but when you plan it accordingly, it will be different.
Hence, I still believe it.
I must work hard for myself~!!!
For my Sake. For my Future.
JiinJiin
Its nothing to do with me if its me or anyone else since I have no power to control things myself.
To be the person I wanted to be but failed.
I'm totally lost. For the character being now is too weak.
I wanted to get back my pride, my character and myself.
Maybe I should have start to change.
Living in my own opinion is not a good choice, but still I have to live with moderations.
Its been 1 week since I started to cook breakfast for Dear Dear.
Somehow I feel satisfy but I don't want to be the little woman of a husband.
Maybe I should start with my attitude?
Or I can start with my knowledge? Of course getting more knowledge is 1 of my interest.
My personality should have change the first and I must be more independent so that I wont get bullied.
INDEPENDENT!!
This is the thing that is difficult for me to get rid of.
Whenever I with my boyfriend, I become too relay to him.
Should have change this the first.
Somehow, I feel bad when I can't get with dear dear always.
Now, I have boyfriend (a future-husband-to-be), job and family (but they are far from me).
Somehow, I feel myself like to control things too much..
Plan most of the things recently to lead myself to a better environment.
To be or not to be~
Life is miserable but when you plan it accordingly, it will be different.
Hence, I still believe it.
I must work hard for myself~!!!
For my Sake. For my Future.
JiinJiin
7:44 PM
