Monday, February 23, 2009
♥ The Path I'm Going
The path I have chosen make my life different.
I really wanted to lead myself to a happier life.
However, I can't get what I want.
Yesterday is my worst day and its my worst decision.
Yea, I found him do things that I really hate.
I wanted to leave. Leave the house.
Its not my house though.
Not the environment I used to.
Smoke-free environment at least at home.
A home should be the place I feel comfortable not irritatable.
I've tried my best. I'm tired of it though.
Tried to feel comfortable but can't.
I cried.
Feel lost. I have nowhere to go.
Feel stupid. To carry on.
Feel tired. To tolerate.
This is the worst time I had broke down.
I packed my things while crying. Wanted to leave.
But where can I go? This is Singapore.
Not Malaysia. If its Malaysia, I wont give a damn.
He came in and asked what am I doing.
He said its the first time see me like that.
And its my first time doing so.
He hugged me and comfort me.Telling me sorry.
I don't know what to do except crying and mumbling out things I don't like.
I admit that I'm a troublesome girl. I brings trouble to boys who are together with me.
He said he want us to be happy.
But with his bad temper and the winning heart of mine, its a bit difficult though.
He said he will try his best. Ok...
I give him some time.
Hope that he won't disappoint me again.
The feel of disappointment it really bad.
I hate that kind of feeling.
Disappointment = Not trustworthy
However, its passed.
Today is a brand new day but its Monday.
Sobs...Working day...
I think everyone have Monday Blue because during weekend a lot of people having fun
But when weekdays, everyone have to work and its a hectic life.
Hope weekdays pass as soon as possible.
Hope everything went smoothly.
JiinJiin
I really wanted to lead myself to a happier life.
However, I can't get what I want.
Yesterday is my worst day and its my worst decision.
Yea, I found him do things that I really hate.
I wanted to leave. Leave the house.
Its not my house though.
Not the environment I used to.
Smoke-free environment at least at home.
A home should be the place I feel comfortable not irritatable.
I've tried my best. I'm tired of it though.
Tried to feel comfortable but can't.
I cried.
Feel lost. I have nowhere to go.
Feel stupid. To carry on.
Feel tired. To tolerate.
This is the worst time I had broke down.
I packed my things while crying. Wanted to leave.
But where can I go? This is Singapore.
Not Malaysia. If its Malaysia, I wont give a damn.
He came in and asked what am I doing.
He said its the first time see me like that.
And its my first time doing so.
He hugged me and comfort me.Telling me sorry.
I don't know what to do except crying and mumbling out things I don't like.
I admit that I'm a troublesome girl. I brings trouble to boys who are together with me.
He said he want us to be happy.
But with his bad temper and the winning heart of mine, its a bit difficult though.
He said he will try his best. Ok...
I give him some time.
Hope that he won't disappoint me again.
The feel of disappointment it really bad.
I hate that kind of feeling.
Disappointment = Not trustworthy
However, its passed.
Today is a brand new day but its Monday.
Sobs...Working day...
I think everyone have Monday Blue because during weekend a lot of people having fun
But when weekdays, everyone have to work and its a hectic life.
Hope weekdays pass as soon as possible.
Hope everything went smoothly.
JiinJiin
11:26 AM
