Thursday, May 14, 2009
♥ Damn Thing~
10.35a.m.
This few days, a lot of things happened.
Keep on get scolded... Complain from clients and etc...
Feel bored about working and just hate it as much as I hate that bastard.
However, I already don't remember how does that bastard look like.
I wanna rest for longer. Wanna have a long holiday.
My superior, she's on MC for about 3 weeks.
Good for her to rest after her surgery(not really resting cause we still disturbing her).
Next Monday confirm will get scolded by boss or her.
Sigh**
My working life so miserable now.
Worst than every job I worked before with less fun more stress.
However, I learnt more than any other job.
The other bad thing is, I feel like I'm like a robot or puppet and boss/superior is the person who operate a robot or a puppeteer.
Feel really really bad.
Working is not just for living and learning, but for everything.
Why people hate their jobs?
Why people hate weekdays?
Its just because of boss not good? Working environment bad?
Or simply because of misunderstood between colluegues?
I don't really hate my job but just simply dislike my job.
I just hate working and I would like to be a housewife in the future.
People might think that what's so good being a housewife?
Housewife have to do chores at home, cook, take care of child, do shopping for home, take care of husband's need and some even have to please parents-in-law.
The only thing that a housewife benefits is free from office politic wars.
Less stress compare to multi-task household stuffs and at least, a housewife don't have a deadline to get things done except she, herself set a timing for herself to get things done so that things won't crash together and make a fuss at home.
When am I going to free from working life? Most of my friends taught that it would be fast but I don't think so.
As so many things have to be done before a marriage, and due to the economy crisis.
Its not easy for one person to support the family.
So, I think my dream of being a housewife will be hard to achieve.
12.00 p.m.
I'm really tired of working here.
Ok... Everything is my fault..
I take it.. All of it..
I really don't hope to work in such sucks environment.
I've just started to get along well with Stella and I'm actually happy about it.
But now, there are still someone who pissed me off and I pissed her off.
Called me just to scold me. What I can do is just shut my mouth and listen.
I already learnt my mistake and I will make sure I won't do it AGAIN.
You taught I won't feel bad if I did anything wrong?
I do feel bad when things that bad happened.
I do feel bad if the person get scolded even not because of my fault.
I then knew that bad things will happen on coming Monday.
Boss will scold her and me and she will scold me.
If she really loose the job then what should I do?
What am I thinking that why office rules and style change is maybe because of me.
Stella said it was not like now previous year even when she started work here.
Afterall I really feel that I'm not supposed to be here.
I'm just an outsider in Singapore.
Except Dear dear's home, no other place makes me feel I'm part of here.
Part of here as a Work Permit holder.
2.00p.m.
Bad things always comes after my good things and even eat up my good things.
I just hate that.
IT MAKES ME SICK WHEN I'M DEPRESSED!!!
I will be always pain whenever I got stressed and depressed and whenever I feel nervous.
And all of these pain start at the time I started my job here at this bloody place.
I really wanted to work in a happier environment.
With at least colluegues treat me well.
Just like Siew Ping who listen to me always when I'm in 88db.com.
Just like Issa and others who help me with sales when I'm working as Panasonic Promoter at Bintang Maju, Plaza Low Yat.
Just like Jane and Kit Mun accompanying me while facing customers when I'm working in Erican Language Centre.
Just like my gor, Alan, Alice and Ah Seng accompany and guide me when I'm working in JT Sales and Services.
Just like Bob and Chee Teng accompany and teach me skills when I'm working in Kenny Roger Roasters.
I'm really happy since 15 years old when I firstly got my 1st job at Kenny Roger Roasters.
Till then, this is the worst.
Maybe because I already grow up and everything getting serious in life.
Now then I understand why people don't wish to grow up and stay as a child.
It is simply happy when you are a child and you get your head off from those fuck up adult life.
I really feel bad.
I really wanted to have a true friend at my current work place who can teach me and guide me.
I really trying my best.
Its just that people will do things wrongly without good guidance.
Its just like a new born baby who need guides to learn how to speak and walk.
Its just as simple as that but people will make it difficult.
Really fuck up with things happened and to be happening soon.
I really hope that I can go back to secondary school time when everyone having fun.
I really missed those days when I didn't feel fustrated like now.
I really need to shout and have a big cry.
I'm not as tough as my friend thought.
I'm weak. I'm just acting like I'm ok with everything but in fact I'm not always ok.
I'm really tired.
JiinJiin
This few days, a lot of things happened.
Keep on get scolded... Complain from clients and etc...
Feel bored about working and just hate it as much as I hate that bastard.
However, I already don't remember how does that bastard look like.
I wanna rest for longer. Wanna have a long holiday.
My superior, she's on MC for about 3 weeks.
Good for her to rest after her surgery(not really resting cause we still disturbing her).
Next Monday confirm will get scolded by boss or her.
Sigh**
My working life so miserable now.
Worst than every job I worked before with less fun more stress.
However, I learnt more than any other job.
The other bad thing is, I feel like I'm like a robot or puppet and boss/superior is the person who operate a robot or a puppeteer.
Feel really really bad.
Working is not just for living and learning, but for everything.
Why people hate their jobs?
Why people hate weekdays?
Its just because of boss not good? Working environment bad?
Or simply because of misunderstood between colluegues?
I don't really hate my job but just simply dislike my job.
I just hate working and I would like to be a housewife in the future.
People might think that what's so good being a housewife?
Housewife have to do chores at home, cook, take care of child, do shopping for home, take care of husband's need and some even have to please parents-in-law.
The only thing that a housewife benefits is free from office politic wars.
Less stress compare to multi-task household stuffs and at least, a housewife don't have a deadline to get things done except she, herself set a timing for herself to get things done so that things won't crash together and make a fuss at home.
When am I going to free from working life? Most of my friends taught that it would be fast but I don't think so.
As so many things have to be done before a marriage, and due to the economy crisis.
Its not easy for one person to support the family.
So, I think my dream of being a housewife will be hard to achieve.
12.00 p.m.
I'm really tired of working here.
Ok... Everything is my fault..
I take it.. All of it..
I really don't hope to work in such sucks environment.
I've just started to get along well with Stella and I'm actually happy about it.
But now, there are still someone who pissed me off and I pissed her off.
Called me just to scold me. What I can do is just shut my mouth and listen.
I already learnt my mistake and I will make sure I won't do it AGAIN.
You taught I won't feel bad if I did anything wrong?
I do feel bad when things that bad happened.
I do feel bad if the person get scolded even not because of my fault.
I then knew that bad things will happen on coming Monday.
Boss will scold her and me and she will scold me.
If she really loose the job then what should I do?
What am I thinking that why office rules and style change is maybe because of me.
Stella said it was not like now previous year even when she started work here.
Afterall I really feel that I'm not supposed to be here.
I'm just an outsider in Singapore.
Except Dear dear's home, no other place makes me feel I'm part of here.
Part of here as a Work Permit holder.
2.00p.m.
Bad things always comes after my good things and even eat up my good things.
I just hate that.
IT MAKES ME SICK WHEN I'M DEPRESSED!!!
I will be always pain whenever I got stressed and depressed and whenever I feel nervous.
And all of these pain start at the time I started my job here at this bloody place.
I really wanted to work in a happier environment.
With at least colluegues treat me well.
Just like Siew Ping who listen to me always when I'm in 88db.com.
Just like Issa and others who help me with sales when I'm working as Panasonic Promoter at Bintang Maju, Plaza Low Yat.
Just like Jane and Kit Mun accompanying me while facing customers when I'm working in Erican Language Centre.
Just like my gor, Alan, Alice and Ah Seng accompany and guide me when I'm working in JT Sales and Services.
Just like Bob and Chee Teng accompany and teach me skills when I'm working in Kenny Roger Roasters.
I'm really happy since 15 years old when I firstly got my 1st job at Kenny Roger Roasters.
Till then, this is the worst.
Maybe because I already grow up and everything getting serious in life.
Now then I understand why people don't wish to grow up and stay as a child.
It is simply happy when you are a child and you get your head off from those fuck up adult life.
I really feel bad.
I really wanted to have a true friend at my current work place who can teach me and guide me.
I really trying my best.
Its just that people will do things wrongly without good guidance.
Its just like a new born baby who need guides to learn how to speak and walk.
Its just as simple as that but people will make it difficult.
Really fuck up with things happened and to be happening soon.
I really hope that I can go back to secondary school time when everyone having fun.
I really missed those days when I didn't feel fustrated like now.
I really need to shout and have a big cry.
I'm not as tough as my friend thought.
I'm weak. I'm just acting like I'm ok with everything but in fact I'm not always ok.
I'm really tired.
JiinJiin
3:50 PM
