Friday, October 16, 2009
♥ I'm Blank
I really don't know what am I thinking right now..
A lot of things just crossed my mind but then I just dunno what it is for now.
I'm totally blank...
I feel that I'm leading myself to Otaku life.
I have less friends to be by my side now and somehow feel really empty.
Everyday manga, anime, and Facebook.
Thats all I have for my day without friends to go out with.
As always, friends are important to me but all my friends is no longer available for me.
Currently, the person who lend me her listening ears is Nurul, my new colleague.
Even I do meet new friend in Singapore but its just not the same as in Malaysia.
Maybe you will ask me whether do I regret of coming to Singapore alone without friends and family to support me.
My answer will still be the same.
I'm the one who decide to come here.
Regret or not is not an issue for me but I wonder why I have such miserable feelings.
I'm writing my bloggie with tears now but I don't know the reason of crying.
I just feel tired in the bottom of my heart.
I'm really tired.
I wanted to borrow someone's shoulder for me to cry and rely for some moment.
Who will be there for me?
Recently really can't contact Kit Mun... I'm worried about her..
I wanted to sleep for a long long time.
Don't want to wake up for few years.
Wanted every things in my life to be good and happy.
Wanted every moment I live memorable and happy.
As always, I feel really tired.
Tired of all the craps...
Disappointed.
I'm talking crap right now.
Fuck up life.
I wanted to run away from reality.
I hate reality!! I hate you!!
I can;t stop crying till now. Its feel like crying for no reason.
No one be there for me.
No one is willing to give me a warm hug at this moment.
Yea, I'm a weirdie. What can you do to me?
I'm insane. I'm stupid. And that is the way I am.
Even if I tried to change myself is still no use.
I am who I am.
A blank minded person with such miserable life.
I wanted to run out from the house now but I have nowhere to go.
Running away have to use money and I don't wanna waste that kind of money as I wanted to keep money to further my studies here.
However, I still didn't manage to save most of my money.
I end up doing nothing at last.
The feeling of hating myself comes back to me.
I've thrown it away for a very long time but now it came back for me.
Knn!@#$%^&*F*ck!! Cb!! Sh*t!! Damn@#$! B*tch.
Really wanna shout the fuck out of my lungs~!!!!
I'm really out of my mind~
I can't hide the hatred of myself..
JiinJiin
A lot of things just crossed my mind but then I just dunno what it is for now.
I'm totally blank...
I feel that I'm leading myself to Otaku life.
I have less friends to be by my side now and somehow feel really empty.
Everyday manga, anime, and Facebook.
Thats all I have for my day without friends to go out with.
As always, friends are important to me but all my friends is no longer available for me.
Currently, the person who lend me her listening ears is Nurul, my new colleague.
Even I do meet new friend in Singapore but its just not the same as in Malaysia.
Maybe you will ask me whether do I regret of coming to Singapore alone without friends and family to support me.
My answer will still be the same.
I'm the one who decide to come here.
Regret or not is not an issue for me but I wonder why I have such miserable feelings.
I'm writing my bloggie with tears now but I don't know the reason of crying.
I just feel tired in the bottom of my heart.
I'm really tired.
I wanted to borrow someone's shoulder for me to cry and rely for some moment.
Who will be there for me?
Recently really can't contact Kit Mun... I'm worried about her..
I wanted to sleep for a long long time.
Don't want to wake up for few years.
Wanted every things in my life to be good and happy.
Wanted every moment I live memorable and happy.
As always, I feel really tired.
Tired of all the craps...
Disappointed.
I'm talking crap right now.
Fuck up life.
I wanted to run away from reality.
I hate reality!! I hate you!!
I can;t stop crying till now. Its feel like crying for no reason.
No one be there for me.
No one is willing to give me a warm hug at this moment.
Yea, I'm a weirdie. What can you do to me?
I'm insane. I'm stupid. And that is the way I am.
Even if I tried to change myself is still no use.
I am who I am.
A blank minded person with such miserable life.
I wanted to run out from the house now but I have nowhere to go.
Running away have to use money and I don't wanna waste that kind of money as I wanted to keep money to further my studies here.
However, I still didn't manage to save most of my money.
I end up doing nothing at last.
The feeling of hating myself comes back to me.
I've thrown it away for a very long time but now it came back for me.
Knn!@#$%^&*F*ck!! Cb!! Sh*t!! Damn@#$! B*tch.
Really wanna shout the fuck out of my lungs~!!!!
I'm really out of my mind~
I can't hide the hatred of myself..
JiinJiin
8:50 PM
