Wednesday, April 21, 2010
♥ Things in my mind
Hmm.. I said before that I will update my blog more often even if nobody is reading but it seems that I can't update regularly. Its not that I'm super busy (I'm busy) to write my blog. Somehow, I feel so lazy of doing anything. Wanting for a super long break. It seems like I'm tired of something?
Yea. Tired of working lor. Especially working with people who treat u as a threat. Feel not comfortable at all. However, I have 2 understanding bosses. That makes me feel better. I'm lazy now. OMG! I don't know what to do now. I didn't help Kelly at all. Feel sorry to her but I'm so tired of doing typing after all the typing given by boss for the last 2 weeks. Everything is only typing and formatting. Sometimes, I feel stress when bosses trusting my work too much. Told Dear Dear this and he says this type of stress is a good stress and proof that I am capable of doing work. Somehow, I feel over stress if anything happens to the documents then I'm the one to be blamed. I know my boss appreciate my work and believe that I can do a good job for him, but I somehow feel stress and I'm always afraid of doing things wrongly. I don't have much confidence in myself because I'm always being doubt by someone who did not trust me ever since I'm young. I'm not a good girl at that time too, so I think that's the reason why people won't believe in me.
A lot of things happened in my life which I've experienced. Happy, sad, disappointed, lost faith, suffer and sorts of feelings but I just won't grow mature (different people different point of view). In some people's eyes, I'm still a kid who doesn't know the world. But I understand that we have to experience all sort of happenings to grow.
Someone said that I'm wicked. I smile wickedly. First time ever heard that in my life. Say I 人小鬼大。I wonder if I am? Coming out to Singapore to work at the age of 19? Consider 人小鬼大? I'm so surprised that I made such decision. I'm really not a good girl. Hmmm..
Recently, saving money to buy stuff to keep myself pretty start from skin supplements. Join Cozycot for more reviews on the items that I'm interested in. Somehow gain more product knowledge upon reading the descriptions and reviews. I'm surprised that Cozycot just have their outlets in Singapore at Orchard Central. I'm really gonna visit to the outlet for more product information and stuff.
Okay. Gonna be busy now.
Jiin Jiin
12:20 PM
